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2007-02-10T22:43:00.000-08:00

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2007-01-08T22:02:00.000-08:00

managed to meet my nuren ytd for shopping at Far East. both of us wanted to buy so many things from top to toe - bags, dress, skirts and shoes. lol. shopping at Far East is my favourite. managed to buy a dress and a skirt at 19 bucks each. and chanel managed to get her 2 dresses which are also at 19 each. lol. we got ourselves a cheap deal.

i also managed to have a good talk with her regarding certain stuff. yupps.
thats what friends are for. (:

2007-01-06T05:21:00.000-08:00

its so fast. its year 2oo7 already! shall do some reflections here. life in 2oo6 has been a very busy one since i have stepped into J2. the study pace has become so much quicker, with more tutorials, extra lectures and other stuff. and of cos the arduous period of enduring prelims and alvls. but never forgetting orientation'o6- kaleidoscope of life. it really changed my life.

there's a list of people I wanna express my thanks to:

1. my laogong Bryce Lam
thanks for always being there. always being so supportive, encouraging and understanding. i couldnt have survived my prelims and alvls without your help. i still rem u trying to help me with my physics even though u dunno anything. lol. we also had our fair share of quarrels. sometimes we will quarrel over even the smallest things.

it wasnt easy for the both of us to be together. we really had a long story behind our relationship. it didnt start off easy i must say. you once said that its a miracle that the two of us ended up together and i agreed. and we dun even noe how we started. lol. i think miracle is really the best word. and becos its so hard for both of us to be together, i treasure this relationship more.

2. Lam Jia Feng Chanel
nuren you will know wad i want to say. lol. its just the telepathy between us. always doing the same things and saying the same things. i rem we even wore the same shirt together without agreeing beforehand. lol. stop copying my actions. its disgusting. being crazy and gossiping togeter. always listening to my problems, scouting for jobs together. being money-faced together. lol. its just so memorable.

3. Lim Sin Ying
hmm pretty babe. i will always rem the times spent over at ur house. baking cookies together. you were the one who taught me how to bake delicious cookies. lol. and of cos those girly talks we had and me pretending to be sleeping. lol. those sensitive topics and stuff. you are also the one who introduced super-sized high heels to me. LOL. will always be my best friend.

4. Ouyang Huizhen
even though you are in poly while i am in jc and that the fact that our timetables are so different, we still managed to squeeze time out to go out together. its really very comfortable going out with you. you are also my best k-boxing partner! i always enjoy talking to you and sharing all sorts of secrets, gossips and troubles with u. i shall continue to find more time to go out together! loves.

5. Chieng Siew, Yenting
my two very clever pals. meeting cs early every morning is my daily routine before going to sch. and cs is always so approchable and friendly. always so cute. yt is the one who motivated me to study in sec 3 while i was super slack. if not i wouldnt have gotten my grades for os.

6. Tang Yue Feng
he's my best buddy in class. and the one who understands me very well. gossiping is our daily activity. lol. a gentleman also. although sometimes he will do things that makes me angry. lol. he's a great listener too. i will always tell him my troubles. lol.

7. Kahfong, Chenhui, Xiaohui
my 3 lovely ladies. you guys are great too. will rem the mugging times we had together. kfc is always laughing. xh is always so smart. and ch is always so mature. lol. thanks for making my stay in S13 a great one.

8. Tay Wen Jun Roy
ya. a very hardworking person who always issue challenges to me. always competing with me over results and everything. lol. always planning outings and events. i noe its very tough. but its a job well done. a very gd sister. lol.

9. Benson, Aikleng, Daniel, Bayhung
the DNT. lol. mugging session together. nice friends. benson is the one i owe the most money to. lol. he always treat me to drinks. al dan bay are always cracking funny jokes to make the class livelier. lol.

10. Kokswee, Karthik, Qamarul
although not very close with both karthik and qamarul, it has been great knowing them. making my life in S13 a v wonderful one. kokswee never fails to amuse me with his retarded acts. lol. teasing him is also one of my fav hobby in class. lol. you are a great friend kok.

11. Elvin, Yongsheng, Kenneth, Wenlong, Wenyi, Mengjie
you guys are my good friends! i really and totally enjoy being with u guys. those 4b outings together are totally memorable and fun. its just so comforable being with u guys. its just a special bond that linked us up together. i really love u guys to bits.

12. Ong Hooiling, Koh Cheemeng
my gd pal and di. knew them ever since sec sch and our friendship didnt die out even though we went our separate ways. shall always rem the times spent together in my heart. love you two.

wah. its a long entry. lol. there are some other ppl too. but too lazy to type all out. ppl like the rest of my S13-ians, Og11 peeps, F3 peeps, 4Bians and ziping. lol. well if i missed out anyone please pardon me! lol. happy 2007 everyone. hope it will be a nice year ahead. shall stop updating for awhile.

2007-01-06T01:36:00.000-08:00

alright. finally i got my two weeks of pay. and did i mention that i got a good progress award from moe or sth? its a cheque of 200 bucks. hmm. good progress award. how come i didnt notice that i made progress in my studies? -.- anyway its good to have money. it really doesnt feel nice to be totally broke. and i mean TOTALLY.

work was quite boring. i dun really enjoy myself as much as last time while I was working in pc connect. maybe because my colleagues at pc connect are all relatively the same age as me. and hence we could click so much easier. its not that my colleagues arent nice in YKK. they are really nice as well. but maybe due to the age gap, we've got lesser things to talk abt. the youngest there is 26 yrs old.

felt really sick ytd due to my fever coming back and the heavy flu. my manager was really nice to ask me to go home and still insist that i get the full day pay. so i went home at ard 2 plus. been sick for one whole week already. fever, diarrhoea, flu, sore throat. everything. just wondering whether it had sth to do with the prom? everyone is sick after it. lol.

ok. basically nth much to update. its just after i started working that i actually missed my school life. school life is so much more fun with classmates and friends ard u. although there are bound to be many tests and exams. lol. this is so random.

please let me get well soon.

2007-01-02T00:44:00.000-08:00

something terrible happened on sunday.
but I am so glad that everything is fine now.
i had a fever on saturday and sunday that went to 38.5 deg.
den i had diarrhoea ytd. pathetic me.

its so tough to have diarrhoea
i am running to the toilet like 15 times a day?
the medicine doesnt seem to help at all.

dear said that if i still dun get well by tmls he will accompany me to the doc. haha. so sweet of him lah.
watched deathnote2 with him ytd. ( sorry sy and jf! i ps-ed u two)
the ending was kinda unexpected.
but i still prefer the ending in the manga. haha.

i really hope my diarrhoea will get well. i dun wan to camp at the toilet! sobs.

2006-12-30T19:20:00.000-08:00

Prom Night 2oo6

met up with jf and sy to have our hair done and we rushed to sy's house but to our dismay, there were totally no cabs available. so we had to call a cab in the end. did our makeup at her house and her dad fetched us to suntec. many people were late. i cant remember anything about the prom food basically becos we were too busy taking photos to acherli realise there's food ard. even though i am super hungry~ lol.

haven got all the prom photos yet. but will upload when i have them all again. after prom went PartyWorld with the clique. had great fun there too. and now i have sore throat. i think i caught a cold while out on the streets in the middle of the night. lol. 29th december was all in all a very fun and great day.

2006-12-21T20:50:00.000-08:00

hohoho. I am going out with my dear later on.
we are going to catch the Jay Chou movie- the curse of the golden flower.
so excited. been ages since I last went out with him.
plus he say its his treat today. LOL.

i totally love bryce lam hong yu.

and the japanese people in my company are really sweet.
ueda-san always ask me about my work and he even thanked me today for helping out in the company. mizushima-san gave me a super beautiful christmas present and is really nicely wrapped. i opened it and found that its a 512MB thumbdrive. woo. iwamoto-san treated me to chocolates ytd. lol. they are really nice.

2006-12-20T18:38:00.000-08:00

Just wanna blog about sth funny that happened ytd since I am really very bored now and dear haven woke up. Went shopping with jf ytd after work since both of us are working in Bugis area. The time was already very late by the time we reach Far East Plaza and we had lots of things on mind to buy.

So we rushed here and there like mad. We stayed less than 5 minutes in each shop if nothing catches our eyes. And we kept screaming at each other and shouting "HURRY HURRY!" its quite a hilarious sight seeing two mad ladies shopping and running and screaming at the same time.

The most funny thing happened while we were going home. We took a train home and so when we reached City Hall, jf stood up and faced the right door of the train. standing beside her was an aunty also facing the right door of the train. I was still sitting down.

The train finally reached City Hall and the door opened on the left side. so u could see the unanimous actions of jf and the aunty. Both turned around and exited the train simply because they had faced the wrong side of the train, thinking that the doors will open on the right side. LOL. jf simple has no sense of direction.

2006-12-18T21:40:00.000-08:00

today is my second day of work
its really very cold here. even colder than the lecture theatres in JJ. lol.
i have completed all my work and am so bored.
its fun. and all my colleagues are really nice also.
but i get tired of saying konichiwa everyday. lol.
so many japanese people here.

and Iwamoto-san looks so much like L in the deathnote. lol.
and the good thing is i have got log cake to eat. (:

2006-12-13T00:42:00.000-08:00

dear all, i am employed at YKK Holdings Asia Pte Ltd. its near bugis and basically my job is to serve tea to the CEO and distinguished guests, listen to incoming phone calls, handle travel bookings and ordering lunches for the employees. i guess this is not a bad job afterall. the office is located at a super nice building and super high class too.

the only disadvantage is that the whole place is very very quiet. lol. everybody is busy doing their own things. hope that i will be able to undertake this job well. (: i will be starting work officially next monday. now my only problem is the office wear. ):

2006-12-07T22:06:00.000-08:00

hoho. melissa from recruit express finally called me back and asked me to go for the job interview at MOE. its $7/hr. yeah! hope i can pass the interview successfully. i have been waiting for this day for ages.

cant wait for 29th december to come. part of it is because of the prom and another part of it is because of sth else. hope that on the 29th everything will turn out successfully. its a very important day to me. i hope he likes what i planned and the small christmas present i got for him. lol. he said he will use his creativity to think of a nice present for me too. cant wait. (:

below are some movies that i want to watch desperately:

happy feet.

night musuem. this is nice.

deathnote2. might be catching with him. lol.

charlotte's web. read the story before. looks nice.

anyone for the above movies? lol.

i love bryce lam hongyu.

2006-12-05T20:14:00.000-08:00

went out with chanel ytd. its been a long time since we last went out together. even if we did went out last week it was because we both had to look for a job. i finally bought my prom dress with the help of miss chanel lam jiafeng. and its priced reasonably too. (: and we went to a place that most teenagers wun go. hopefully no one will get the same dress as me. lol.

so bored at home la. kept waiting for the job agency's call. hopefully like what they said, they will confirm with me the job next week. its $7/hr lah. if i get the job i will be super happy. but still have to get through the interview first. i really hope to get this job. because i am in desperate need for money. totally broke. ):

looking forward to prom. haven decided whether to style my hair with sy yet. well, at least i settled the dress. its one big burden off my mind. oh yea, and thanks roy for the souvenir from hongkong. i totally love the mickey box.

i miss my dear so much.

2006-11-29T21:32:00.000-08:00

these few days i have been rotting at home while waiting for the job agency to call me up. wanted badly to go out but i am totally broke. ):
hence i ended up reading interesting books like the five people you meet in heaven. totally cool book. LOL. luckily reading books can help me while away most of my time.

you see. i am bored to the extent that i am reading books. oh wells.
and did i mention that i spend like most of my time with miss lam last week? i have been seeing her almost everyday. LOL.

and yeah. everythings fine between us again. it was jus a small misunderstanding and negligence on my part. totally neglected him. i realised that when he said that after As i was jus busy and more busy. didnt spend enough time with him. glad that we are still going strong despite the fair share of quarrels and arguments we had. (:

i totally adore him.

2006-11-24T22:41:00.000-08:00

seriously. i am in a very very bad mood now.
looking back at all those things that happened, i guess i am really tired.
everything just seems so vague now.
i feel so lost.

2006-11-22T04:35:00.000-08:00

hohoho.
congratulations miss grace chan.
and congratulations miss lam jiafeng.
we are officially employed at Esprit and shall be working at IMM starting next week. and we have to attend training next monday.

the interview today went really well. the interviewer was nice and friendly. initially i felt quite nervous but after that everything went quite smoothly. sheryl said that ours was an unique case cos they seldom put friends together in the same outlet. hohoho. we are lucky i guess.

me and jf had a hard time trying to find the headquarters Hiap Huat House. in the end we took a cab cos we walked the wrong way and the uncle was nice cos our cab fare amounted to only $3. lol. the building looked like it might collapse anytime. and eerie. especially the lift.

2006-11-21T01:20:00.000-08:00

so many people have said that i look like Jin San Shun in the korean drama "my lovely samsoon". omg. lol. i wonder whether its a good or bad thing? i am definitely not good at baking cakes. lol. but i do have a wonderful boyfriend like her. LOL. =X

As are finally over after eons of anticipation. surprisingly, i didnt felt as happy or excited as i thought i would be. hmm i wonder wad my life will be without books and notes for the next few mths. hopefully my results would guarantee me a place in uni. lol. thinking of taking up designing. (:

went out with jf yf and wj ytd. had lots of fun and bought a cute polka dots dress. didnt manage to buy a bag though.. which was wad i planned to buy. jf bought for herself a super nice green collar top. i think she looks really nice in it. tmls i am going to rebond hair! weets. so excited.

many ppl have introduced jobs to me.. but i have yet to decide which job i wan to do. do i have a sell clothes face? lol. why do all the jobs introduced to me are all 'selling clothes' related? lol. guess i am destined to be a salesgirl. lol. going to apply for a job with jf tomorrow. hope everything turns out well.

finished watching goong a few days ago. its really touching at the end.. although the last few episodes made me really fed up. lol. its a bit draggy. but its still very nice. the ending was a bit weird though. lol. lee shin is so nice.

i love my boyfriend a lot (:

2006-10-30T03:50:00.000-08:00

i guess i can do a bit of updating. acherli how interesting could a jc student's life be? its forever surrounded by tonnes of books, tys and notes. lol. i just hope that alvls will come as fast as the wind and go as fast as the wind too. let me enjoy my beautiful life.

strangely, i have been receiving weird calls asking me to go for job interviews. the thing is i dun remember applying for a job. lol. its really creepy. i already received three such calls from 3 different companies. dear asked me not to go and i heeded his advice. lol. and how did they get my hp number? hmms.

things i wanna do after as:
1. spend more time with him.
2. rebond my hair. my hair is getting horrendous.
3. get a good job.
4. shopping spree at vivocity
5. catch up with old friends

and the list goes on and on...
omg. please end this misery earlier.
time seems to crawl..

2006-10-20T00:02:00.000-07:00

DEATHNOTE is a super nice movie. the intelligence of Kira(Light) and L really left me baffled. although i thought L was really ugly. lol. the deathgod was super cute too. the only disadvantage is that we gotta catch part 2 again in dec 2oo6. taking a break from all the hectic studies is good.

the short meetup with the rest and mr ng boon hwa was good too. he gave each of us a small card with his 'inspiring words'. sweet of him though.

but right now.. its back to mugging time. yawns. )):

2006-10-03T05:27:00.000-07:00

wees finally i can upload this pic. part of the birthday present i did for him. idea came along while i was shopping with ouyang abt one week ago. spent so much effort on the cover page lah. took almost 2 hours jus to design the border and stuff. since the presents are already with him i can safely upload this pic. lol.

hope he likes all the gifts i got for him. kind of stupid and weird. lol. i feel so relieved now that the presents are with him. a load off my mind. happy sweet 18th! he say he is touched! guess that makes everything worthwhile.. (: lol.

been a good girl and mugging hard for the 'A's. mugging and mugging. revising and revising. mundane life. i guess that instead of abhoring the topics i am weak at, i shall embrace them with love. lol. jiayou ba grace.

2006-09-30T08:21:00.000-07:00

happy day today. going out with sec sch classmates is so fun. i feel so comfortable with all of them. and of cos the 'surprise' which really touched and surprised me. lols. even though i had to wait at the mrt station alone for about 30 minutes~ went to turf city to eat steamboat. their treat. (:

ys and jf cooked for me throughout the dinner and at first gave me a raw fishball to eat. apparently the outside looks gd and inside its still cold~ lols. ate a lot of vege too. talked and gossiped alot. lol. happy.

the presents they bought for me:
the billabong slippers

missha pearl eyeliner and blush

i really like the slippers alot. because my slippers had gone missing and i have been 'slippersless' for quite a long time and the slippers are really comfy and fits just nice. i like the pearl eyeliner too! i had been wanting sth like that for a long time. and of cos the blush! wonder how they knew my blusher already ran out. lol.

2006-09-25T23:00:00.000-07:00

this is the card-like letter jf drew for me for my really very very very super duper belated birthday. haha.. its like a composition right. but i was realli damn touched. as i read the letter my tears almost flow out and it brought back lots of pleasant and funny memories like the area of rectangle and the classic ' jerking and pinching' which ms tan said. hmm. i think i will never ever forget those memories.

finally got to meet my darling oy on last sunday. dating her out is even harder than dating the gods. lol. had lots of fun time shopping together although i kept complaining that my feet was tired and i kept whining. lol. had marche for dinner and of cos my favourite rosti!

jf told me something shocking today. i was really very shocked. but what shocked me most was the person who said this. a leopard really doesnt change its spots i guess. i am glad that i can trust my friends with secrets i noe they will keep well.

this week will be a very busy week preparing some things. a date that is very important to me is coming. and i hope to make it memorable. (:

2006-09-19T03:58:00.000-07:00

finally today we had our last prelim paper. i think it should be relatively alright if nothing goes wrong. *prays. felt like a load is liberated off my shoulder.. although the real 'big' load has yet to come. but i shall first enjoy my few days of holidays till sch reopens next week. i think i will be camping at home to watch 'devil beside you'

now at sinying's hse. we jus had vcd marathon and its really tiring.. didnt expect it to be so tiring by just glue-ing ur eyes on the tv.. i think i shall reconsider my movie marathon date with him again. haha.. will be staying over tonight and shopping tomorrow! wees. my long awaited shopping trip.

lastly, i realised that my life is indeed very boring. i am stuck at two paragraphs of updates. well done grace. you indeed have a boring life. please liberate me from this misery soon!

thanks for staying by my side and encouraging me whenever i need you

2006-09-04T02:30:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY GRACE!

i am finally 18years old. i am legal already.
the two very sweet letters from him made the day. (:

2006-08-29T20:42:00.000-07:00

Since my mum, my sis have been asking me what presents i want for my birthday, i shall write down some of my birthday wishes in order of importance.. since i am going to be sweetest 18 soon...

Grace's Birthday Wishes

1. score extremely well for prelims and alevels. (quite obvious)
2. get into a good uni and into a gd course.
3. he will be safe and sound and happy everyday
4. i will be safe and sound and happy everyday
5. no more quarrels, arguments and misunderstandings with him.
6. everyone in my family will be safe
7. find my missing favourite white ring
8. find my missing jay's cd (the cover still intact but no cd inside)
9. my dream phone nokia N73
10. Zen Microphoto, V or V plus.
11. my hair will grow longer.

i hope all my wishes will come true.. although its a bit quite hard. lol. i swear that the moment i work i will make wishes number 9 and 10 come true. i am saving up already. (: guess i wun update anymore till prelims are over. and mr chua has to give us extra chem tutorial on my birthday next week. well done. lol.

2006-08-24T02:33:00.000-07:00

i am very tired out. emotionally, mentally and physically. i find myself dreading the school life everyday.. i practically have to drag and hypnotise myself to go to school. i dread school life till the extent that i even HATE it. and worse still, i find myself getting more and more temperamental which is so unlike me. i used to control my emotions quite well.

prelims is two weeks away! hoorays. i haven studied much. no matter how much i study, there still seems to be topics left uncovered or unsure of. great. i wonder how i am going to pass my prelims. i think i shall go bribe lady luck to help me on prelims. sorry for the outburst today. i admit today i was in a bad mood and feeling quite down.

i hope that my class will get back to normal again. i wish that everyone in my class will be happy and free of troubles. i wish that my class will pass prelims with flying colours. i really dun like the tension and stress in my class.. everyone has changed. maybe the stress has somehow affected them and probably me too.

luckily he is always by my side, encouraging me and giving me support. he is my pillar of strength. at least he makes me happy.

he said that a girlfriend should always be treated like a queen. if i am a queen then he must be my king. (:

2006-08-07T06:51:00.000-07:00

well, grace is really very happy today.
he just makes my life very very beautiful. (:

2006-08-05T09:20:00.000-07:00

Instructions:
Take a look at your friends at every angle of your life,
list up 10 things you wanna tell to 10 friends of yours.
Do not state who these people are.

1. although strictly speaking you are not considered as my friend but i would still like to write this down. life has never been the same for me ever since i got to know you. i never once regretted knowing you and it has been the happiest, most wonderful and most blissful time of my life. you made me feel like a princess. you made me feel loved. although quarrels and misunderstandings never left our life, we managed to brave everything. you wrote a new chapter in my life. you are my true love and my real love. life will never be the same without you. i love you.

2. i let this person down. i am sorry.

3. that pig who sits beside me since sec4. a wonderful pal with no hair but insists that she has hair. she has got a voracious appetite and the thing is she never gets fat with all those amt of eating. life jus isnt fair rite? i am so jealous. lol. she was a great listening ear. all those days of singing 'wo men de ai' will never be forgotten. those days we jerked pinched and played with each other will be etched deep in my heart. thanks for always staying by my side. you are great.

4. a super shy lady with many suitors. sometimes you jus got to open up your heart and let love fill your heart. never ever be unsure of your feelings. grab the chance whenever you have it. dun let fate miss you again. be brave my dear lady. even though we seldom meet up now i just want to say that you will always be my bestest friend. you will never be forgotten.

5. a beautiful lady. she always give ppl the wrong impression that she is very cool and dao. but nevertheless she has also been another great friend of mine. teaching me ways to make up, ways to hide my flaws with clothings etc. my beauty consultant. i am glad to noe you. definitely a person who can read my mind and understand me. a great shopping partner too. (:

6. got to know this friend during my jc life. sharing secrets and gossiping in class have been our daily activities. sometimes you just ought to settle down. if you think that the person is the right one den i think you should go for it. the only person who has telepathy with me.. never fails to noe wad i am thinking and wad i am feeling. thanks for everything. all the best to you and ps.

i think i have to stop at 6. i am brain dead officially. this is a tedious job which requires a lot of brain power and brain cells. lol. but jus a side note to all my friends, thanks for being there. have been sick for the past few days.. with all the flu and sore throat. hopefully i will get better in time to come..

2006-07-28T21:17:00.000-07:00

the past week had been a pretty fruitful week. been studying in school with my bunch of cute classmates and it somehow really motivates me to study better. it's their company that makes my day so bright and colourful. especially kfc with all her 'non-stop highness' and simply contagious laughter. lol.

finally rolled out to meet ouyang today after like 2months plus. i missed her lots! we always cant seem to be able to find a perfect time to meet since poly and jc's timetable are a big contrast. we took neos and had a really long good chat. we talked about everything under the sun from love to friends to everything else. the girls's talk really made my day.

and finally. the picture of the day.

my old friend. i think this is cute!

i had a late night yesterday and i am still feeling kind of sleepy now. but i think its all worthwhile if i am able to help my dear out. even if its jus editing his horrendous english. (:

2006-07-21T03:57:00.000-07:00

it's time for another weekly update. life in school has been pretty much boring with me almost facing the notes, tys and books everyday. nothing much interesting happened except that today is ziping's birthday. happy birthday! he is already 24? 25? yrs old. really old. still dun wanna get married. i think he should start settling down in a few years time with his good old al. lol.

i broke a new record last month. my hp bill came and on it wrote : 1745msg. when i read that part my eyes almost popped out. 1745 msges in jus one month! hoorays to grace. hoorays to bryce for breaking a new record last month. and the aftermath is that my pocket money got deducted for next week. so i am very broke. so now we have reduced msging to chatting on msn. i hope it helps. we shall see.

last week while i was going home at around 8pm, the sky was dark and the streets quiet. i walked past the coffeeshop and this guy looked at me and suddenly said "byebye xiao jie''. i ignored him and thought nth of it. but after that he chased after me and kept making funny noises. he kept shouting "xiao jie xiao jie'' and i was petrified mortified and horrified. i ran for my life. lol. it was so horrible. i swear i am nv going to walk past that coffeeshop again.

i guess i am lovesick. i am actually missing him right now even though i am msging him.
the power of love?

2006-07-09T04:20:00.000-07:00

its another one of my sleepless nights. i really havent been able to sleep peacefully for quite a long time. many a times, i wake up in the middle of the night and cant get back to sleep. its draining all my energy from me. surprisingly i am still as energetic in school. everytime i get to the bed at night and the fear reside in me. will it be another sleepless night?

maybe its the stress setting in. the stress that the teachers had ''unknowingly'' given us. the admonitions i hear everyday telling us to work hard for the alvls. everyday i hear the same things over and over again. "its too late to start now." or "you must start revising for ur alvls now." i feel kind of suffocated.

the teachers are really pushing all the J2s hard. everyday u see lots of J2s staying back to mug till late evening. the atmosphere is horrible. books, notes and tys. they have become a daily neccesity of my life. how nice. i didnt even feel 0.1% of wad i am feeling now during olvls. i wasnt at all worried about my olvls. there are also other things that are bothering me besides my studies.

these other things have also become a burden to me. i feel stressed everyday that i must live up to someone's expectations. i live in fear everyday not knowing when things will just go wrong. a rubber band when stretched too much can snap too. i really cant handle so many things at one time. the person who all along had been my pillar of strength is also giving me problems.

i am so tired. maybe its better to let go than hold on.
i have lost the strength and courage to hold on.
i dunno wad else to believe in.

2006-07-05T22:59:00.000-07:00

i guess its time for another round of update before my blog gets abandoned.
there is only one word to describe my feelings now.

stress stress stress and more stress

i guess everyone is feeling the heat.
everyone is feeling stressed.
jus heard that my uncle passed away in the wee hours ytd.
i felt kinda sad even though i wasnt close to him.

but what kind of pissed me off is that my aunty called me and asked me about my uncle. but after jus one or two sentences of well wishes she proceeded on to her ultimate motive.

'' wad time did he die?"
'' how old was he? ''
'' which blk is the funeral held?"

come on. all she can think of is 4-D at this point of time. i dunno wad to say.
i felt ashamed to have this kind of relative who cares more about 4D rather than how the deceased's family is feeling. wtf. wad have this world become to? a world void of compassion and sympathy.

2006-06-24T08:15:00.000-07:00

the source of my happiness
and the source of my troubles.

2006-06-23T02:12:00.000-07:00

i'd probably be lying through my teeth if i were to say i am in a good mood. right. i am definitely not in a good mood. and i am feeling troubled and low. i think i looked like a zombie walking out on the streets today, completely oblivious to my surroundings. a car honked at me when i was about to cross the road.

two days in a row that i almost got knocked down by a car.
sometimes i wonder.. why cant the cars just knock me down and save me from this misery and all these thinking. wouldnt it be better if i didnt had to think about all the stuff thats happening right now.

the fact that i would be obviously going to get a big fat F for my midyr is already saddening enough. if this is gonna be the way i do my mid yr, den i think i am gonna get Fs for my a level too. the teachers had already sent their silent warnings to us that its not the time to slack anymore.

sighs. nothing is the same anymore.
i am not updating anymore. peace out.

2006-06-17T21:12:00.000-07:00

yesterday we had a big fight.
i was supposed to feel hurt and sad by what he said
but i dunno why when he told me he bet with bookie so that he would lose more money and that i would care about him more.
my heart jus went to him.

and when he told me he requested from his friends to be afk from dota for one minute every now and then to reply my sms, i felt really touched.
i noe that he hadnt been neglecting me that much as last time.
was i the one who had been asking too much?

it felt like it had been placed in a paper shredder. shredded to pieces.
all my anguish jus disappeared.
and it turned out that maybe i dun understand him as well as i thought. there are things which he is sensitive about and yet i dunno about them.

i am sorry bryce.
maybe i was the one who asked too much.

2006-06-16T05:04:00.000-07:00

i am very sad.
very very sad.
how does it feel like to have someone misunderstand ur actions and find fault with you jus becos he doesnt noe the real reason? ask me. i noe.
how does it feel to know that someone u like doesnt trust u at all? ask me. i noe.

i am a fool.
a fool to think u understood

2006-06-12T22:05:00.000-07:00

i just had the weirdest dream in my entire life.
i dreamt about this person whom i have stopped talking to a long time ago.
someone who used to be quite close to me.
initially i thought nothing of it
but after that when i came online, this person suddenly came and talk to me.
i have not contacted this person for a long time.

and why did i suddenly dream about this person?
its really weird.
and what spooks me is that after i dreamt about this person,
he came and talk to me.. arghs.
i am spooked! am i having sixth sense? lol.

watched the omen ytd. although jf and yt think that it isnt nice
i felt that the show had an interesting storyline.
the only disappointing part was the ending.
the rest was quite thrilling. it wasnt scary at all!
satan's number:666. wees.

"from the eternal sea he rises.
creating armies on either shore.
turning man against his brother.
until man exists no more."

2006-06-09T23:40:00.000-07:00

world cup 2oo6
germany 4 : coasta rica 2
wees. haha. acherli the match ytd was boring.
the only exciting part was that there were alr 3 goals in less than 20 minutes
other than that, i spent the time yawning away and sms-ing.

i like the way klose celebrated his 2 goals.
he kissed his ring. so nice..
hopefully germ, eng and brazil will fight for the cup.
it will be exciting. i will be watching ((:

my fav pose of klose. taken from jun's blog

these few days have been pretty constructive.
almost finished up my revision on chem.
halfway through maths. been going out to study too.
right, the momentum is back. i am studying!

i am a happy girl
becos i have a sweet boy
i love you dear.
i trust you, i really do.

2006-06-07T05:51:00.000-07:00

I AM VERY ANGRY NOW.
fuck mr lee.
i hate him.

lousy teachers jus make my day SO WONDERFUL.
get off my back dumbass.
you cant teach.

u successfully pissed me off.
stop calling my house i d i o t.
my mum aint gonna listen to you.

fuck. i am really boiling now.
ready to explode any moment.

2006-06-03T22:28:00.000-07:00

i have deleted away the last post i wrote due to my pms.
or rather it was after-ms. hahas.
so if u didnt catch the last post, TOO BAD.

mid year is jus around the corner. to be exact, its two weeks away.
and i am still fucking slack.
cant find the motivation, the mood and the mind to study.
screw me ppl.

i am so distracted by other things
my mood aint great these few days
been feeling low
and the stupid flu cant seem to go away

sighs!

wad a pathetic life.
i dun wanna mug.
but i dun wanna fail my exams. arghs.

save me.

2006-05-30T06:05:00.000-07:00

went out with ouyang today. finally.
shopped till my legs almost broke.
happy girl today cos bought some things at reasonable prices.
the shorts at topshop super nice but super ex.

bought a bracelet at topshop. and a shirt at another shop which i cant seem to remember the name anymore.
shall upload the pics some other time.
meanwhile, i slept with a hornet in my room for one whole nite the other day without me realising anything.

luckily it didnt sting me. or else i would have been on my way to heaven.
current money status: totally broke.
i hate people who smoke.

the hornet i slept with.

i am seriously seriously disappointed in one of my friends. i dunno wad he is thinking. nothing i said seems to get into his head. i totally give up on him. i dun even feel like talking to him anymore. he really disappointed me. you disappointed me thoroughly.

2006-05-25T22:25:00.000-07:00

ytd was my darling nu ren jiafeng's 18th birthday!
happy birthday nu ren! muacks!

we bought a pair of haviannas green slipper for her, a converse pencil case and gave it to her in the morning. i specially made a card for her too. lol. hope that she likes it. i spent a lot of effort on it kays. and i did the card when i was supposed to be studying for physics practical. on thursday morning i manage to lose the left side of my contact lens and i was left half blinded for the day.

so i had to rush home to get my specs and rush back for chem tutorial. i think about more than 5 peeps said i looked nicer in specs. wth. lol.

had physics spa. all went well i guess. i wrote a lot. and i really mean a lot. lol. thanks kfc for giving us the tips and answers. luckily everything came out as we predicted. whew. got back p&c and prob test. i got 10/15. i felt really happy. cos i thought i would get zero. -.-'' hehs. was feeling unwell on tuesday for no apparent reason. had slight fever and couldnt accompany sy on an important mission.

last night we gave jf a surprise in crystal jade while she was having her dinner with her family. i called her dad to ask whether they bought a cake for her. so malu cans. i was like praying that jf wouldnt pick up the call. wahah. turns out that her dad spoke rather 'softly' and she heard everything. we bought a cake and sent our spy estherL to work. lol the funny thing is jf spotted her before she spotted jf which was zz. could see that jf was indeed surprised and very touched and her eyes were brimming with tears can. LOL.

happy birthday to kahfong too! love ya.

i was touched ytd as well due to some stuff. but shant say it here.
grace is sick.
but grace is happy. becos he cares. (:
grace is happy becos he is sweet.

2006-05-19T22:19:00.000-07:00

talentime ytd was cool and exhilarating. i got super high ytd. it was held at nanyang auditorium in NTU. the place was nice.. jus that the air con wasnt strong and i was sweating. some of the talentime special performances even got me up on my feet and cheered, shouting for encore. the most interesting part was when the MP for Joo Chiat Mr Chan Soo Sen went on stage to sing those oldies. he got the whole crowd laughing and cheering.

and the winners are decided through voting. the audience gets to vote via smsing. i was shocked to hear that. such empowerment of the audience. even in my school. the dance category had the toughest fight i thought. all were strong teams with talent and good calibre.

right. i am going through a very crictical and trying period. i can only hope that i will cross this hurdle as soon as possible. i certainly dun like the way things are going now.. the frequent quarrels and misunderstandings. the lack of trust, faith and communication. the bugging issues we always fail to address and come up with a win-win solution. i am trying hard. i will not give up.

everything i say seems to be wrong
even what i think is wrong.
and now, trying is wrong too.
what am i supposed to do?

2006-05-15T06:41:00.000-07:00

it has been a long weekend for me. a very tiring one cos i met with some huge problems regarding ahem. two guys. especially ytd.. i felt like i could really breakdown any moment. thats jus me. always so indecisive. my brain almost snapped. so i cooped myself up in the room and refused to eat or do anything other than use the blanket and cover my head. anyway ppl, this method doesnt work. it just makes you think ever more.

no replies. no calls. it jus makes my life miserable. felt like i could jump down the building and die any moment. yes, life does not revolve around him. but to me, it does. the world would stop spinning without him.

call me stupid. call me dumb. call me moron. wadever that pleases you. isnt loving someone meant to be like this in the first place?

the gd news is we made up today. life is the same again. hopefully. after this crisis, i think we can understand each other more. its jus another three more years. we can do it. and i made up my mind.

celebrated mother's day on saturday. had steamboat. yummys. was reading kahfong's blog, it made me think alot. my mum is all i have left now isnt it? yeah i dun have a dad in case u all dunno. i lost him to cancer a few years back. she is really very noble. its really hard on her. i love my mum. even though i nv tell her that. i am just too proud. (:

special thanks to hongngiap and nikolas for listening to my troubles especially when both of them are equally as troubled as me and yet they gave me really gd advices. and also not forgetting my nuren jiafeng. i jus love them to bits.

you will always be my number one.
and there will only be number one in my heart.
i really love you a lot. (:
although i disappoint you time and again, you still forgave me.
i wanna marry you. <3

2006-05-11T08:03:00.000-07:00

was just pondering abt wad yuefeng said to me during the physics lecture when we were crapping our time away. he said that there is always ups and downs in a relationship.. after the 'ups' period comes the 'down' period. right.. it is so much like a roller coaster. well.. kind of moody lately.

cant really get the right mood to do anything cos there are some problems on my mind. and i cant seem to shake them off no matter how hard i try. it has been a long term problem of ours. i tried to endure.. and didnt complain so much. but then it seems to get worse. i am not saying i wanna give up.. but its so tiring. ):

watched poseidon today. seriously i think its a really nice show.. the sound effects were really great. i could feel my heart thumping and the whole seat vibrating.. its really loud. lol. it was resonance. oops. i seriously recommend this show.. i thought it would be a love story akin to that of titanic.. but its different. the storyline is quite well planned. the only sad part is that the dad died...

really moody even though i laugh like mad in sch. jus trying to hide and not affect my bunch of classmates cos they are really nice. was talking to hongngiap a few days back. i felt really touched cos he confided in me. he ran into some problems. i am glad that my og members still talk to me like the gd old days. (: thats all folks.

i am not giving up like this, am i?
i am not going to throw away our relationship like this, am I?

2006-05-04T01:17:00.000-07:00

caterpillar attack

i was taking bus to sch this morning all perked up when i felt sth tickling on my neck.. i thought it was my untied hair or some ant crawling so i used my fingers to grab wadever was tickling me. when i grabbed 'that thing' i felt that it was very thick.. and then i saw it. it was a CATERPILLAR! omfg.

a caterpillar crawling on my neck! it was green and slimy and thick and hairy! no one told me it was on my neck. i dropped the caterpillar and it refused to budge. it stuck onto my bag. i was petrified, horrified and terrified! i shoved and shoved and it still refused to move. on the verge of tears, i finally managed to push the caterpillar away.

BUT! it hung on to my bag.. there was a string or sth. i was super scared! no one helped me.. i wanted to scream lah. i was making stiffled noises due to my fright and managed to kick the caterpillar away. and then! it stuck on to the bus wall. jus beside my leg.. for the rest of the journey i kept my eyes on that caterpillar, afraid that it might crawl onto my leg or wad. lols.

alot of images flashed thru my mind. wad if it crawled into my ear? wad if it crawled onto my face? wad if it dropped inside my shirt? argggghs. that feeling is really beyond words. i am scared of anything that crawls. if it was a cockroach i would have taken my slipper or shoe and whacked it. but it was a caterpillar! i am scared of anything without legs and crawls.

election is drawing near and i am excited to see the results. cos this is the first time PAP failed to grab half of the seats during nomination day.. therefore polling day will be exciting. i will be anticipating it. maths test today was easy.. really easy. (:

2006-05-02T07:19:00.000-07:00

highlight of today:
my shoe that saved the day

yeahs. my amazing shoe saved my day and also wenjun and kahfong's day. today we were supposed to retake standing broad jump cos we didnt get silver the other time which apparently happened to be our worst item in napfa. so we went to try again.. three of us failed to get silver again for the first attempt. after that dunno who suggested putting a shoe.. and dunno why my shoe ended up on the scale..

my shoe amazingly did a great job and all of us passed with a silver! wees. i improved by 11cm from my last attempt. chenhui did a superb job even without my shoe. LOL. wenjun finally managed to pass his sbj with a mark of 224cm. all thanks to my magical shoe which must have possessed some power, i think. lols. kfc improved from 150 to 163 which was.. WOW. great job guys. i had fun doing pc with all of u. LOL.

after that went to maths lesson. i caught a look of surprise on mr lee's face cos we never ever turn up for his extra lessons.. we are a bunch of ponners. kahfong was so nice to help me copy the GP questions onto a foolscap. we werent doing maths at all during the lesson. i was doing physics cos mr oh punished me by making me copy the whole solution to the practical.. and mind you, the solution was super long and full of diagrams

oh shucks. i am lazy to blog about ytd. thanks benson aka meitui aka xiaobai for treating me to marche ytd.. unlike that basket roy. lol. for ytd's outing procedure, pls proceed to roy's blog for more information. oh yah, on another note, good luck for ur upcoming exams zp!

i am so happy and blissful and loved. (:

2006-04-25T01:28:00.000-07:00

The 2 idiotic things i did today at home:

1. I turned on the tv and watched the tv for one whole hour and den finally realising that i wanted to listen to the radio in the first place. -.-'' it happened that i picked up the wrong remote control and turned on the wrong appliance and only realise it after one whole hour.

2. I wanted to go to the kitchen to get myself a drink and while walking i tripped and fell right on my face and the best part of it is that.. i didnt trip over anything. i tripped over my own leg. -.-''

i wondered why i did the two idiotic things. maybe my mind was too preoccupied with maths cos i was trying to solve the discrete random variable. LOL. ended work on sunday (finally) and went to eat marche with sy to satisfy my craving for rosti. wahaha. and after that i went to her house to stay over without bring my toothbrush, towel and lots. went to sch together in the morning.. and its a very long journey i must say. almost fell asleep. >.<

i couldnt really sleep well becos i couldnt find the correct position to sleep and i could hear sy tossing and turning in the middle of the nite due to my weird habit of rubbing my legs when sleeping. LOL. so she ended up with a bad night too. paisehs. LOL. was so sleepy on monday that i slept at almost any break. but i still felt sleepy!

had a great sense of achievement today even though i didnt turn up for school today. i am such a ponner. that is because i finally finished up those tutorials that i have been lagging behind. things i accomplished today:
1. probability tutorial and assignment
( i refused to touch it for a vv long time cos i didnt noe how to do a lot of it)
2. discrete random variable tutorial and assignment.
( i like this topic. its easy.)
3. chem electrolysis tutorial
4. alternating current physics tutorial

yeah. i noe that most probably roy and kfc would have completed much earlier. LOL! oops. i still felt satisfied k! everyone, pls tag and say that i am hardworking. muahahahs. (:

2006-04-22T07:12:00.000-07:00

cleard napfa. dun need to worry that much about pc anymore. went to work today and i was super pissed off and irriated by one colleague. early in the morning the first thing he did when he saw me was put his hand ard my shoulders and squeeze my shoulders. ARGHS! I HATE IT. i pushed him away and went to work.

later when we closed shop, this was wad happened:
him: anyone living in the west area wan to go home together? (looked at me)
i didnt reply.
him: grace u wan to go home together?
me: no. i dun wan to go home alone with you. ( said it very loudly in front of everyone)

after ten minutes.. he still stood around there. i was waiting for someone to accompany me home. finally miki knew that sth must be wrong.. thats why i was so reluctant to go home with him alone. so she accompanied us.. on the way down the escalator..

him: you hate me so much?
i didnt reply again
him: come on.. ( put his hands around my shoulders AGAIN! )
i jerked him away.
him: if you wan me to work tmls, i will work.
me: no. i hope i dun see you tmls. and i dun wan to see you.

fucking pissed off. why do these kind of guys exist in the world? are they really that desperate? somemore this is not the first time he did that. last time when we worked together he always does that.. but i tot he was being friendly. until now i really cannot stand it. and i showed my displeasure so clearly lah. arrghs. so angry.. spoilt my day.

i have a craving for marche.. someone accompany me pls. lol. (:

2006-04-16T08:46:00.000-07:00

ok. i feel that another guy care more about me than him. in fact, i am a bit touched by what the other guy had done. sighs. why cant he jus care about me a little bit more? and i mean a little bit will make me contented. or maybe i am a demanding person?

2006-04-15T22:54:00.000-07:00

right. i am back to update. last week was simply horrendous due to the number of tests we had to take. we even got back our progress report. the only good thing is that i finally improved on my physics.. from an O to a C now. lol. hopefully will have better improvement. have been mahjong-ing alot. won money again.

the tests taken last week were quite disastrous. especially chemistry. i think the whole cohort will fail terribly. and yes, i am sure i will fail cos i cant understand NMR. maths.. urm. quite alright la. hopefully wun fail. napfa on tues was cancelled due to the guy's napfa clashing with ours. and i was like so worried for one whole day~ zzz.

friday was surprise birthday bash for sy and elvin. but sy knew beforehand that sth was going on cos jialeong told her sth which he shouldnt.. zzz. spoiled our wonderful plan. jf had to take sy shopping while we get ready. lol. when everyone arrived we sang birthday song and ate the delicious cake. i like tiramisu! had our dinner at asian kitchen.. the food not bad lah.

den we had nowhere to go and started our uglified photo taking session. we walked all the way to esplanade. i gossiped with the three guys and soon, jf decided to come join us. lol. so me kenneth darren elvin and jf gossiped most of the time away and i knew so much secrets in one hour plus. the one that made me surprised was acherli darren's secret. LOL. shhh. had fun. made me think of the past when we were in 4B. *loves.

had diarrhoea the next day and managed to ps cai and hl and di. lol. paiseh. =/ rotting today. hadnt done anything constructive at all during these two days. so i am gonna mug later. sighs! this is the life of a pathetic jc student.

2006-04-07T07:23:00.000-07:00

surprised to see another update? i was reading thru my sec sch friend's blog when i came across this part she wrote when she was in sec 2.. about me. i felt so sad after reading it.

"And the person whu had changed the most (emphasise on the word 'most') is actualli grace. The reason why i say dat grace changes the most is becoz, ever since she noe alot of ppl from other klaz, she treats everyone equal, sho actualli we not considered her very very very good friends, (gr, if u see this den u offended dun blame me, realli have to sae all this out!) Den i noe coz of a certain reason, u dun realli enjoy going out as a whole. budden, i noe u didnt forget us, but u much more popular den us, you are in the popular clique, so i always ask u, if one day ppl lyk ouyang ever cums to 3a, would u forget us, u may sae u wont, but i not to sure...(if we all go 3a, IF!)"

although i dunno why she mentioned ouyang, but wells. i felt so sad lahs. i didnt noe thats how she felt until today, after three four years. and come to think of it, even though we are in the same jc now, we dun talk to each other anymore. not even a simple hi. its hard to imagine that we are acherli gd friends in the past.

was i the one who changed? have i really forgotten about my old friends after i entered the 'popular clique'? i always thought that it was our character that didnt match.. i am those crazy kind.. those outgoing and enthu type while they are the more quiet type. i click better with ppl like jf sy oy cos they are of the same frequency as me. sighs. i am feeling so sad now lahs.

bought a lot of things at missha today. spent quite a lot. sobs.

2006-04-06T00:27:00.000-07:00

met up with oy on tues when i PON school. jus dun feel like going sch alr. it bores me seriously. especially maths and gp lesson. went out with oy and kor to far east. shop around and went marche shortly. kor's treat. yummy. too bad i wasnt really hungry.

went heeren with oy after kor left. took neo. been such an old old old pasttime of mine. cant remember when was the last time i took neo. i promise i will do a makeover for oy. i will teach her how to makeup! she needs to be more woman. LOL. saw an ebase top which i really like.. but its 65 bucks.

i shall wait patiently for the great singapore sale. there is a list of things i wanna buy.. tops skirts shorts. u name it and i want it. LOL. donated blood last wednesday. i was so scared of the duper big needle. but it wasnt pain. (: i am brave. hehs. last fri had our chem SPA. it was saddening. i couldnt get any final crystals so i had to cheat my way out by using the crystals from the first step.

lots of tests coming up next week. maths test on mon, physics SPA on tues, chem test on wed, maths lecture test on thurs. oh gosh. why is my life so miserable. and J2 common test starts on 20 june. who has common test during holidays? even my long awaited holidays are used up for exams. arghs.. sighs. won money from mahjong session, thats something consoling.

and yes, i admit that my eyes are very big. lol

2006-03-23T07:36:00.000-08:00

right. these few words kept on reiterating itself into my head. resounding through every part of my body. "your A levels examination is jus a few more months away. you should start now. if you fail your A levels, you have two choices, go MI or go nowhere.''

well. as if we weren't already stressed enough.

bombarded by endless tests. cant seem to ever get enough sleep. and worse still, i cant seem to sleep at night. my stress level is going up. maths test today was alright. thanks to mr leow who explained some maths to me.

all the teachers who are teaching me doesnt seem to be very good. except our chem teacher.. he is GREAT. i jus seemed to finish O levels yesterday and now i am preparing myself for A levels. something is so seriously wrong with the singapore education system.

volleyball is fun. addiction.

i seem to be distracted. i dun wanna fail my A levels but i cant seem to find the motivation to start NOW. i am not those kind of mugger with no life. my life isnt about studies.. is about so many other things. sighs.

i miss you so.

2006-03-16T03:11:00.000-08:00

F3 Chalet
Venue: Aloha Loyang
Date: 14th-16th March

gees. i am finally back from the chalet. had great fun there definitely. jf and me met up on the first day in search of my ipod nano which actually costs 348 for a 2GB one. i was so disappointed. and den while waiting for the-forever-late chong tat, we ended up shopping at city link and i bought myself a beautiful shiny beaded necklace. way out of my usual style. lols. (: cos jf said i must break out of my style to achieve greater heights?

and den we went to aloha loyang with chong tat for the F3 chalet. alex came out with his bike to fetch us and i coerced him to let me ride his bike. lols. after that me milton and mervyn taught jf how to cycle and we spent around one and a half hour trying to teach her. she learnt to peddle with much more confidence after that. we went back and played volleyball with.. basketball. we didnt have a choice.

me weiquan and jason cycled to the F4 chalet at arenda country club while jf walked. becos she was scared of cars and she was still unstable on her bike. me and weiquan was cycling slowly intially but after that we decided to find the place first and we zoomed off, leaving jf and jason far far behind. found roy and chatted a bit. when we went home, we ps-ed jf with may and weiyuan the two lovebirds and they strolled home while we raced back to the chalet.

after that was more cycling and cycling due to jf's request. we cycled for the whole night. and she improved. she could even catch up with us slowly. i must say that i am a gd teacher. lols. but whenever there are cars.. she will panic and scream. -.-''

i think i practially didnt sleep a wink. we bathed only at around 7am in the morning and had mac breakfast. played mahjong for around 6 hours and i lost $2 plus. i learnt a lot more about mahjong. its actually a duper nice game to while your time away. after that i went up to chat with andy and zheng quan while jf went to sleep. it was quite fun chatting with them except that they kept making fun of my accent. zzz.

went down to fry rice for the ppl and i should say its a thumbs-up for my first try. lols. the rice actually turned out edible and i think it tasted nice. had barbecue and the chicken wings were not thoroughly cooked. went cycling again with milton weiquan jf and mervyn. chatted with milton on the beach while the three cycled. after that me and jf cycled and she fell down two times becos she couldnt avoid the ppl walking which was.. lols. and she even fell in front of a whole group of ppl.

went home around 10 and hitched a ride from chong tat's dad back home. i fell asleep in the car and jf too. i was really disorientated. my body is aching everywhere from too much cycling i think. and i have a lot more blue blacks this time.. maybe they developed when jf rammed her bike into mine. lols.

i miss him so much during the chalet..
everything's back to normal already. and better.

2006-03-11T23:51:00.000-08:00

i was so wrong
he dun understand
he doesnt noe how i feel
after 4 bloody long years.

a misplaced love.
so, dota is more impt?
your friends are more impt?
soccer bball is more impt?

i tried to hold on
i tried to mend the broken pieces
only to have u break them all over again
maybe things should stop.

courage is all i have
strength is all i need
everything you said.. are lies.

2006-03-11T07:37:00.000-08:00

alrights. i am seriously worn out now. shall summarise everything. on thursday i pon sch cos i totally am SICK of school. went for orientation 2 jj nite. had great fun dancing with francis.. sweating the hell outta me. hugged my og girls.. hais. i miss those times when we were together. time will nv go back. if given a chance i will gladly do orientation all over again.

on friday went to play volleyball with the usual gang. ponned maths lesson, gp and pc. dear DM lee still sms me and say " i am going to tell your parents you did not attend my extra lesson today''. oh as if i even care? bring it on man. went to sy house.. so beautiful. went kallang theatre to watch ali baba. it was quite nice if not for the fact that my mind was somewhere else...

working day today. i am seriously tired out. dun feel like going to work tmls. maybe i wun go. i thought i felt so torn apart these few days. i saw chong tat today at suntec, menghow and karhow. they all wanna buy pc or laptops. but only one bought from me. LOLs.

jus another note, i really wanna thank nikolas for accompanying me through my lowest period of my life. he is really a great friend. he stood by me and i noe he forever will. lols. you rock! and i stone. LOLs. i will never forget wad u said "text me, call me or wadever. my hp will be jus beside me. i will be there when u need me''. i am like so touched lahs.

2006-03-03T19:11:00.000-08:00

haven been updating for quite a whiles. guess i am jus plain LAZY. the feeling of completing your work beforehand really feels great. at least i dun have so much to do during weekdays and i can really rest and sleep earlier. lols. on 1st march, the seniors came back to get their results. i was really appalled.

some were crying tears of sadness while some were weeping tears of joy. desmond got A A B. woahs. i am like.. wow. lols. ke qi also A A B. i hope that i can get their results for my a level. afterall we are from same sec sch same jc.. so... hopefully the genes will pass on to me. LOLs. got back my chinese a level result also.. got an A1 with oral distinction. wells, not much feeling.

i am also beginning to look forward to pc lesson. its such great fun. ytd ms chua took us for pc.. its tiring but at the same time FUN!. i think everyone including mr ng mistook me and yf as a couple. zz. that time play volleyball he still go and ask yuefeng how is his gf and den.. pointing his fingers at me.. lols. can see our face immediately sian diao. lol. so funny. ppl, we are jus gd friends. LOL.

i spotted a TYR shorts. its like.. damn chio larhs. and priced at 22.90. hmm. the temptation is back again! lols. looking forward to class outing on 18/3. weets. sure have lotsa fun at sentosa. nothing to update la seriously... life is pretty mundane. so.. stop asking me to update. and 20 tags per update alrights. LOLs!

2006-02-17T00:06:00.000-08:00

valentine's day is over. it isnt jus a time for couples, but for friends as well. received presents from lots of friends, roy francis weixiang sy.. even though its jus chocolates or sweets i still appreciate it very much. lol. love songs were being played and apparently no one was in the mood for lesson.. including me..

however, the day was so boring. PC and went home. cos theres a chemistry test on the next day.. and i presume many ppl had a date with their chem notes instead. and its such a disaster? lol. thats the mundane life of a JC student. sighs. wasnt expecting any present from him since he said he was going to be busy studying his tests..

but.. 9 roses. when i asked him why.. he said 1+3+1+4.. thats why got 9 roses. lol. but the roses are half dead now.. lol. i think i spent too much time staring at them while studying for my chem. yes, he was very sweet. 4 years since we noe each other and more to go.. lol. bliss.

jj road run today. it wasnt a run. it was more of a walk. since most of them are walking.. kahfong and me were so funny. she kept saying pao bei.. den i will reply zou bei. we run run den kana block.. run den block.. so there was no point in running. haha.. had chem practical after that.. organic chemistry. simply fun.. doing crystallisation and stuff.

1oo2o4
forever-

2006-02-07T01:31:00.000-08:00

my life is in a MESS now.
life has been such a rollercoaster.
all the ups and downs are driving me crazy.

can someone pls tell me wad to do?

i am suffocating. with all the due amt of stress.
with all the ceaseless and boundless hwk.
with all my shoddy and comtemptible results.
and everything that has happened..........

everything is jus in a mess!
i am in such an awful mood now.

2006-02-03T05:41:00.000-08:00

revelation ended ytd with a big bang. with the ending of revelation comes along with the official ending of orientation 2oo6. it also means that some of them might be leaving us for other jcs or poly.

i will really miss og11 and everyone from F3. stayed up the previous nite to rush out the cd for the og till 2am plus. i finished everything only till midnight and i woke up at 5 to meet the ogls of og11 to finish the touch up for the gifts. luckily we managed to finish everything by 7am jus in time for ogl meeting.

we sang tonight and i simply have no idea why i jus felt so emotional. den we went to the hall for briefing and stuff. sth happened right before revelation and simply spoilt my mood. and it wasnt even our fault in the first place. shrugs. shall not mention it. by 9am, the J1s started filing into the hall..

videos of orientation were being played and they cheered even though we were hiding behind the stage. den the song you raised me up by josh groban started playing and the ogls started to walk out from the stage. like wad we anticipated, they cheered again. lol. the event was supposed to be solemn so i forced myself not to smile at them but to look stern.

videos were once again being played and i cried. yes. i teared. because its the last gathering we have. den we gave them the gifts painstakingly prepared by us. i think me and jf put in the most effort le. the jigsaw puzzle, the cd, the flag and the note.. den we went to canteen to eat. ok.. cant remember much. did our last food cheer..

after that was mass dance and thank u video by the ogls. i felt so paiseh.. cos my role in the video was zzzz.. yeah. den we took lotsa pictures again. after revelation went to watch I Not Stupid Too. quite a nice movie.. super funny and touching. i cried like hell. lol. well, i have lots of tears. after the movie went to join og15 for dinner. had a great time with them..

thank you og11 for giving me so many wonderful memories. thank you ogls of F3 for making this camp so beauftiful. og11 consists of the following ppl: hong ngggiap, wei quan, maw cherng, milton, kah soon, wilbert, alex, mervyn, xiangyu, clara, michelle, senglien, wan jun, shiyi, bao xian, rani, celeste, wenting, xinying, huiyu, jessie, yvonne, shihui and jia jing.

of cos, not to forget the 4 greatest ogls : ME! jiafeng, weiyuan and rasyid. and the 4 special ppl outside my og which i really love : hanyang, sherman, bo xiang and zhengquan. ooops. forgot to thank them for buying the poster and giving it as a gift to me. haha.. i hope that things will not jus end here. i am ready for more.

the ogls of family 3

og11 and the 4ogls

me and hong ngiap

me and bo xiang, sherman and hanyang

me and guys of og11

2006-01-26T06:42:00.000-08:00

attention to the following ppl: bo xiang, sherman, hanyang and zheng quan. STOP READING MY BLOG! lol. u are not allowed to read!

alrites, jus being lame. jus a quick update and i suppose i wun update in the near future. maths test today was a total disaster? shrugs. mental block plus LT5 was freezing cold.. i expected to fail anyway. rushed to orchard with jf for some last minute shopping and we sat 174 there.. the journey was super long la..

but me and jf gossiped our time away.. we chionged from wisma to heeren and to far east jus to buy all our things. bought tops at wisma and a half jacket with jf. we both bought the same jacket jus that its different colour.. mine is brown.. hers is purple. jf bought her dress at heeren and we practically rushed to far east..

she took her shoes aka 'gold is glamorous' and my skirt.. and we both bought a bracelet and an extra necklace for me. saw felicia chin there.. she is SUPER chio! den.. i also saw nikolas! but i didnt say hi to him.. and i got scolded by him. missed the perfect chance eh nik? lol. i stared at him and walked past him but he didnt see me. lol. after that jf went to meet her sis and i went home..

met him on the bus and we went home together. gees. (:

2006-01-21T21:25:00.000-08:00

well, lots of things has happened recently. its been quite a big blow to me i must say.. and of cos, shocking as well. i am now in dire straits and stuck in a dilemma i cant seem to get out of no matter how hard i try to forget about it. shrugs. shall start from last saturday which was our F3 outing at sentosa~

it was great fun mixing with the J1s, going crazy with them.. getting sunburnt with them and getting all wet when i didnt bring extra clothes. lol. all thanks to hong ngiap who pushed me into the water.. lol. i was standing there feeling the cool sea water brushing against my feet when suddenly i jus fell and *poof* i am wet. lol.

mixed around with other og like og15 and og9. got to know other J1s except those in my og. had great fun playing stupid games together and laughing my head off. most of the time i didnt stay with my og. lol. it was really a memorable day. after that we proceeded to bath and sebby bought a shirt for me to change into. we went to harbourfront to eat dinner.. and yeah. shant talk about the rest.

school has started officially for the ogls but i cant seem to tune back to the correct mood. i am still in orientation mood. i cant seem to focus without thinking about orientation. shrugs. i shall tune back fast. and i dun even wan to talk about our new teachers like DM lee and mr chan our gp teacher. all i can say is that.. i have a really bleak future.

things that happened recently.. i have been surrounded and pestered by unwanted rumours all thanks to someone whom i shant mention who. i have misplaced my trust in certain ppl. although i havent figured out what exactly happened. all the things that happened certainly put the friendship of me and jf at peril and risk.. but the lucky thing is that our friendship isnt as fragile.

and i am glad that i discovered friends that i can trust during orientation.. ppl like alaric, sebby, chongtat etc. the hunting gang yeah. lol. i also found a long lost friend in wentian. i must really thank wentian for listening to me, letting me drown him with all my problems.. and tolerating all my nonsense. thanks wentian.

you are the only one for me
only you can understand how i feel
and only you will make my life complete
i love you laogong

2006-01-07T21:12:00.000-08:00

orientation 2oo6 has ended. engulfed by lots of different emotions and feelings now... dun exactly noe how to put it in words. its really touching to see that the effort we put it didnt go to waste.. really amazing to see how they transformed from total strangers to being good friends.. how they managed to open up themselves to us and to the rest of their og mates..

initially during the first two admin days.. they were being super quiet and un-enthu.. no matter how hard the ogls shouted and shouted. they still refused to cheer with us.. when we asked them to intro themselves and talk among themselves.. most of the time they will stone and rot down there.. its kind of disheartening la.. especially the guys in my og. most of the time they refuse to cooperate with us..

den camp day came.. all the ogls were very high.. we played actual story.. could see that the og had started to bond already.. we ran round the whole school looking for clues and we were the first few ogs to complete the actual story.. so we gathered at the grandstand to act out the story.. the og started to give a lot of comments and views on how the story should be acted out.. it was really fun..

had singing session in LT5. i was going crazy with the rest of the ogls intially at the back.. but i went to join our og later.. and mr leow said sth so touching.. and it made me cry. the guys in my og saw and they pat me on the shoulder.. although none of them said anything.. den we went to play night game.. it was super fun.. it was dark and scary.. haha.. the guys were made to piggyback the girls to the other side.. and.. we were the FIRST to finish! haha.. thanks to wentian too..

they went to sleep and we had ogl debrief. stayed up in the canteen all the way to 4am plus before going to sleep in the hall.. woke up at 5am the next day.. was really super shag. mr leow reprimanded us and said that the 2nd day is the most impt of all.. and that we shuldnt look so tired. so we went to play telematch.. its really different being and ogl and camper.. cos i get to throw water bombs at them!. i pushed hong ngiap's face all the way into that plate of flour.. lol.

den zhengquan smeared his hands on my face even tho he is not from my og.. so my face had lots of flour on it. chong tat crushed the papaya onto my head.. arghs. lol. and he poured water on me.. lol. it was fun.. but we ogls dint have time to bath.. so we use the hose to wash away the flour and clean up a bit. next was mass dance.. realyl high and fun. i danced with sebastian (ogl) and another sebastian (camper) .. really fun.. the camper sebast was being made crazy by me.. lol.

den came the most fun game of all.. the world of combat. played with water and lots of other things.. one ogl poured a whole pail of soap water onto me.. grrr.. and then sprayed me with the hose.. haha.. its really fun.. we played swimming pool with mr leow.. and its really fun!! mr leow jus makes the whole ting so fun.. we won the tug of war too.. even tho our og was made up of more girls.. lol. i was really wet from head to toe.. but we couldnt bath.. so i went to change into dry clothes while waiting for the campers to finish bathing..

den came jj nite.. it was really high.. the atmosphere was gd and everything went smoothly.. danced with zheng quan. hahah.. he super shuai la.. and his eyes super nice. had a great time.. den sang songs.. was on the verge of crying again.. becos its our last night together.. we hugged the campers.. thanked them.. our og even gave the 4 ogls a super tight hug.. i really felt like crying.. they cheered for us.. and i really felt touched.

stayed up the night to do gifts for the campers.. and i fell asleep in the canteen.. wende taught me how to start e-web the next day.. jiafeng also fell asleep with me.. then by 3am we were chased to sleep by the seniors.. so we went to the classroom to find the girls.. realised that they haven sleep yet.. so we asked htem why they haven sleep.. they said that they wanted to wait for us to sleep le den they sleep.. i was touched..

next day we went to a classroom to play e-web.. aka emotional web. i was really really nervous becos i was to start the game.. and mr leow said that the first person to start the game mus set the tone and mood for the game to progress.. i was really nervous.. those that i rehearsed with jf i didnt say at all.. cos my mind jus went blank.. and halfway the string tangled up.. causing us to feel even stressed.. but after that everything did went smoothly..

celeste was the first to cry.. and after that i started crying too.. although i didnt noe why.. and then they started to cry.. and we sang auld lang syne after that.. and jj spirit.. bao xian cried.. and asked us not to sing songs anymore.. if not she really will cry again.. we went to the hall for debrief.. mr leow recgonised our efforts.. and told the campers of our sacrifices and thanked us.. me and jiafeng were crying like hell.. tears jus kept on flowing.. the camp ended with all of us bonded together..

its where the stars line up
its where the oceans touch
its in a place u never been
that feels like home
its the air right now
it when u give your all.. and give a little more
i never been so sure
thats where u find love

look at us.. and see our smiles
this is where we all belong
i remember the times we shared together
until.. my last december

2006-01-01T06:03:00.000-08:00

ogl camp had ended about one week.. the ogl camp was really fun but at the same time really tiring. some of the games were fun.. especially the world of combat. i really enjoyed myself getting all wet. had fire drill in the middle of the night.. really shock the hell outta me.. i thought wad happened.. lol.

we had PT in the morning too ard 5am plus. we were singing and running at the same time.. its not that tough acherli. we were singing too loud and one guy shouted from the HDB flats to us.. saying that we were "gila'' and i think i heard ''cheebye'' too. lol. but we ignored him and continued running on the track and singing our lungs out.. its acherli a hilarious sight.

had lunch at mac with F3 and F6. bonded. knew the other ogls beta.. ppl like clarence, bryan, henry, sharon, ke wei.. etc etc. mass dance was super fun! i love mass dance.. especially the song pump it. i think that dance is the nicest.. and of cos our ogl dance! yeah by usher. ok.. decorated the hall the next day.. had dry run.. urmm.. cant remember wad happened.. skip skip skip. *forward forward*

then came college day. super boring. its like us watching the ppl receiving prizes... thats all.. nvm. next yr u will see me on stage! muahaha. oops. =P ate the famous prata at suntec.. its really nice la.. crispy and hot.. curry is yummy.. but den.. super ex.. one egg prata is $1.80. lol.. nevertheless its nice la.. saw mr oh.. nice teacher he is.. starting to miss everyone in sch..

urm.. went back sch again.. my this whole week is devoted to sch activities.. had dry run again.. and then we went to JP with our family.. me and nu ren jf went to buy gifts for our og mates.. i took all the stuff home to do the gifts.. i look like a typical auntie.. lol and it had to rain on me when i am already being so.. pathetic. lol. den nothing much le.. called up the ppl who are coming to jj.. they are friendly.. i cant wait to see them during orientation. i am sure we will have fun!

and this is jus for nu ren jf : noe that u have been working real hard as the vice head of F3. you are doing a really great job! lol. keep it up.. and dun be so stressed.. i noe u love us.. but dun dream of us again! lol.. its scary.. haha.. love ya lots. jia you bei. og11 rawks. tmls can take pay le!! we can go shopping! lol. (:

2005-12-17T23:41:00.000-08:00

haven been updating recently.. much has happened.. shall summarise everything. lol. if i still dun come and update.. most probably i will be murdered in my sleep by sy etc. have been working at funan from the 5th to 11th. work was pretty boring.. sales were still not too bad.. with wonderful colleagues like derrick.. and zp who sheltered me from the rain when i didnt bring my umbrella. LOL. yes, thank you if u are reading this. lol.

went to eat marche with ouyang also on the 10th i think. it wasnt really expensive and the food were yummy. pls refer to below for the pics. lol. i bought my mum's birthday present too.. some crystal necklace and bracelet.

ham and cheese crepes. yummy.

pan fried potato.

sambal stingray.

wedges.

calamansi with sourplum.. hmm.

also had steamboat with S13 at tian tian huo guo at bugis. walked walked to esplanade.. the scenery at night was really aesthetic i felt. the only mistake was that there wasnt any breeze.. felt so hot. lol. celebrated yf birthday there on friday. missed my wu chu cai hong finale.. but nvm.. jun had it recorded down.. shall go his house to watch someday. went to co camp on wednesday and stayed overnight at ava room.. it was freaking cold.. and i still had a shower in the morning.. i was practically freezing and shivering.

thats about all that happened.. sy is going to thailand at end of month. here's wishing u bon voyage.. and dun forget my shiny handphone pouch. LOL. ogl meeting on 21st.. mass dance session.. weets. looking forward to it.. i hope.

2005-11-28T20:35:00.000-08:00

alrites, after charging myself from yesterday's sleep. i am alive and kicking again.. been so terribly tired after four days of work.. yeah, it was slack, fun and tiring as well. somemore i had to rush to work from chalet on the first day.. chalet was sianified cos everyone was so addicted to the winning eleven game.. well, i managed to win some of the guys! lol. girl power! winning eleven is a football game.. lol.

sales this time was not very gd. not many ppl came.. i guess it had something to do with the location.. its at expo.. so i was slacking thruout the whole show.. always rotting for one hour at 7-11 with hl and jf. got to noe a few more colleagues.. one of them nearly made my blood boil. not jus mine.. but everyone's else.. cos he always snatch other ppl's cutomer. its like.. wtf la. also knew the acer distributor better.. handsome and caring definitely. lol. always ask me why i haven go home.. lol.

i also got to know some of the projector ppl.. namely kok hong, jiawei and jiahao the twins! lol. the first day i see them i felt that they looked so alike!! then on further enquiry, i knew that they were twins! wweee. lol. so excited.. never see twins before ma.. the last day i kept talking with them.. so the projector boss come to me and asked me to stop talking to them cos i was distracting them from work.. he said it to sour me la.. not to scold me.. lol. so the boss end up souring me even more.. and the few guys stood there commenting about wad i said, my looks etc.. zzzz. very paiseh. sth the boss said made me feel even more paiseh. lol.

thats about all la.. going shopping with sy later on.. lotsa things to buy.. anyone sponsor me pls? lol. my money is running out!! lol.

2005-11-24T07:27:00.000-08:00

sometimes its the feeling inside and you feel like you need to break down and c.r.y
it's funny how good memories can start to make you cry.
its funny how you can have the biggest smile on your face but deep inside...you just want to let go of everything, run away and s.c.r.e.a.m

i am feeling very terrible now.. and i still have to force myself to laugh and smile with the customers.. attend to their every need. i am seriously tired.. well, maybe its just me. i always pretend that everything is OKAY when its NOT. i always pretend to laugh when i actually feel like breaking down.

who can i tell my troubles to? who can i really confide into? when will i stop hiding all those little secrets?

sorry sorry sorry sorry. i am very sorry.. i didnt mean it. pls dun ignore me.. pls.

I want to be remembered as the girl who always smiled, even if her heart was just broken. I want to be remembered as the girl who could brighten everyones day, even if she couldnt brighten her own

2005-11-16T00:06:00.000-08:00

yeaps ppl! i am back to update.. and the reason why i am updating here.. is that the maple server is down and i cant maple till 5pm. lol! missed me eh ppl? i still stick to my policy of 20tags per update. lol. life has been pretty busy lately.. busy with mapling and orientation stuff i suppose. we painted our og and family flag last saturday.. it was fun and our flag is uber nice. forgot to take pic. lol. and ytd i went back to sch to help out with the family identity.. its busy but i like doing all these things.. i cant wait for orientation 2oo6. (:

ok i am stuck for words now.. cant think of anything to update anymore. lol. nothing much has been happening since its the holidays.. i only touched a lil bit of hwk. lol.. cos i am totally addicted to that maple.. trying hard to focus. lol. dyed my hair.. yupps. i like the colour a lot.. oral presentation is over. and hip hip hurray! no more project work! lol.. i am liberated from misery and tortures. lol. finding things to keep myself occupied this few days..

maha is getting married! she invited us to go.. i am so shocked. lol.. maybe we will go crash her wedding? hahaha.. i love seeing ppl get married. its feels so blissful and romantic. lol. maybe some unhappy things did happen last few days.. but i guess the storm brewed over and things are fine now. i am glad things are the way it is now.. and i dun really ask for much.. i jus hope that things will continue the way they are. nth will change..

next week will be bery busy too! 22nd -24th november is 4B chalet! weets. looking forward to it.. i love every 4B outing. hmm.. 24-27 november will be working. hahaha.. bet it will be fun filled and fruitful i hope. i jus wan to buy that converse shoes... and i changed my blogskin.. its different from my usual style.. lol. shrugs.

its an addiction i can never get rid of.. i am addicted to you..

2005-11-02T08:43:00.000-08:00

sometimes, i jus wonder.. why things dun always turn out the way we wan them to be. hmm. ytd had bbq over at benjamin's house with 4B ppl. been such a long time since we all gathered together as a class even though many ppl were missing. the guys arranged to meet me at my house at 330pm but only elvin arrived on time.. darren and yongsheng were super late. i should have told them to meet 3 instead. made me wait so long.

so we carried the food over and hailed a cab. talk talk on the way and reached. carry all the food upstairs again.. even though i only carried the plates and cups. LOL. the rest had already reached le.. we played mahjong.. maplestory.. lol. had a great time. after that.. we went downstairs to bbq. played and fooled around like no one's business.. took lotsa pics. i jus love being with them.. being with them makes me feel happy. lol.

played poker and i had to cook three hotdogs becos i lost the game. see how childish we are? lol. but i simply love being childish. especially with them. LOL. after that one by one, ppl left. i was the only girl left behind with five other guys. we talked and played and i almost blew my top at them cos they peeked into my hp without my permission!. grr. but suan le, since we decided to share with each other. wenyi had to give us the torn $50 and put everyone in anguish becos we couldnt find the torn part.. we were so worried. but luckily ys managed to find it.

went home with the guys, initially planned to take bus. but then after that.. everyone took cab. i went with darren. and the rest in another cab. i was FORCED by darren to pay the cab fare. so ungentlemanly! lol. i was very tired.. but i really had fun. i love 4B. anyway, mrs tan said that i am a cutie pie! lol. i really like her a lot.. its really a pity that she wun be teaching us anymore. she is really a great teacher even though i didnt score well for GP. hahaha.. hopes that everything turns out well for her. i will miss her though..

dunno wads wrong with u.
maybe been smsing too often
we run out of topics to talk about
we end up being hot tempered
arguments and quarrels prevailed
i really dunno wads wrong with us.
i dun wan things to go wrong this way

2005-10-21T21:22:00.000-07:00

wee. i am back to blog.. but i would like to apologise to the following : wenjun, karthik, benson and the other two i dunno who.. lols. i am sorry for tua-ing u guys the last minute. sorry lahs.. but i seriously dun feel like going out today. i am really sorry. next time.. maybe? haha.. changed blogskin again.. like this a lot.. hmm..

this week has been pretty fruitful.. i have been very hard working too.. finishing all my assignments and homework way before time. i seriously dunno wads gotten into me. hahaha.. went out with yang on wed to kbox and we went shopping.. i bought a skirt. finally~ haha.. den i went to cut my hair with wenyi. she dyed her hair purple and a lil red. i tot it was nice.. i wanna dye too!

thursday was the first ogl meeting. i am in family 3!! weees. same with jf, alaric and yuefeng. we gonna rock the orientation ppl. so initially we were asked to group according to our names.. and nobody had the same initial as me! i was alone... sobs. and den we had to find our own jigsaw puzzle.. and i couldnt find mine! but then eventually the jigsaw puzzle came to me. lol.

after we were grouped accoring to our families, we had a lil ice breaking game.. to bond us together.. it was quite fun. me and jf were pretty high and crazy. LOL. red lorry yellow lorry. say this five times and i bet ur tongue will get all twisted up. lol. and den we had the squirrel hunter fire game.. yuefeng and jf had to do forfeit cos they were the odd ones out. LOL so they ended up having to sing three blind mice to the uncle right right across the road. lol.

and friday sth interesting happened. lectures were called off.. because there was a power failure! lols. can u all imagine? blackout everywhere.. no air con.. no lights.. and we continued with our lessons. i was dozing off under the extreme conditions.. lol. yupps.. thats all folks. wun update so soon.. maybe few mths later. depending on my mood. tata.. see ya guys.

and yupps, jus wanna say sth else.. congrats to my pal chuenfull. hahaha. i am happy for ya too. *winks* work harder wors.

looking forward to orientation 2oo6.

2005-10-16T04:18:00.000-07:00

i am really pissed now. wads the matter with my pw group mates? i cant seem to understand.. this is NOT the first time this kinda things happen.. i am seriously PISSED ppl. i spent 4 solid hours in that powerpoint slides.. u guys were the one that asked me to go home and do the slides.. i am ok with it.. i spent so much effort in it. 4 hours ok. i did the animations did everything clearly and nicely. and den wad happened?

i jus now called her cos she ask me to bring the slides. i was like huh? wasnt she supposed to do that.. so oh finally.. i was the last to noe that they decided to do their own slides already. wtf la. if u all wanna do ur own slides pls tell me earlier! dun make me do all those for nothing.. if i noe.. den i wun spend so much effort on it.. i would give u guys a sloppy one. i even took the effort to draw that thing one line by one line.. all my effort for nth man.

this is not the first time.. last time i wrote the written report.. typed everything our one word by one word and then in the end i realised that the finalised report didnt even one bit looked like mine.. so they changed everything again. hellO!!!!!! is not i dun wan to put effort.. u guys are *$&^#%&*@#@*&. next time i am not gonna volunteer to do anything. i am always the last to noe that there is no meeting.. or the last to noe that there is a meeting.. i am the last to noe the meeting time etcetc. am i a part of that group in the first place.

wtf wtf la. argggggghs. i am so PISSSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEED. i dun really voice out my views in sch is becos i dun wanna argue with u guys. its a waste of my time. especially HER! stop dominating the DAMN project will ya. its OUR project.. not yours. i dun care if anyone of u read this.. all the better if someone from my grp read this..

u guys waste my time doing the slides. i put in so much effort. all for nothing man. if u guys gonna do ur own f damn slides pls say earlier.. save me the time and effort pls. its not i dun wan to contribute to this whole f project work.. my contributions arent recognised! wtf la. jus one more month to OP and i can say GOODBYE to u guys esp her. i dun hate them. i am jus fookingly pissed.

2005-10-13T07:18:00.000-07:00

when things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
when the road you are trudging seems all uphill,
when the funds are low and the debts are high,
and you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
when care is pressing you down a bit-
rest if you must, but dont you quit.

life is queer with its twists and turns,
as everyone of us sometimes learns,
and many a fellow turn about
when he might have won had he stuck it out.
dont give up though the pace seems slow-
you may succeed with another blow.

often the goal is nearer than
it seems to a faint and faltering man;
oftern the struggler has given up
when he might have captured the victor's cup;
and he learned too late when the night came down,
how close he was to the golden crown.

success is failure turned inside out-
the silver tint in the clouds of doubt,
and you can never tell how close you are,
it might be near when it seems afar;
so stick to the fight when you're hardest hit-
it's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

this is something that mrs joey tan shared with the class today. i find it so inspiring. i admit that these few days i have been looking gloomier than usual.. forcing myself to laugh and smile like my usual self. but after today's session with mrs tan, i felt so much better.. i shall not quit halfway. i will persevere on..

going for the OGL interview with jf this coming saturday.. hopes that we can make it.

2005-10-10T08:14:00.000-07:00

got back my results le. not very gd.. although i attained 2As 2Aos to promote.. but its jus a borderline case.. during chem lecture mrs tay said " if you are those that manage to pass all but with a borderline case only.. then u really need to think whether the JC system is suitable for you".. to make the day worse, i failed my chem. i still haven exactly recover from the shock that i acherli failed my chem.. supposedly my best subject. once again, i let myself down.

i suddenly realise that there is no time for slacking in jc life. even right after our promos, we have to go on with normal lessons.. we started new topics on maths and chemistry. i really lose all hope in my chem le.. maybe the more confident u are, the more likely u will make blunders. shrugs. have i really made the right choice upon entering jc? giving up hope man.. i dun seem to do as well as last time.. my results dropped terribly.

and seeing my other friends getting gd results.. really make me feel so inferior and stressed. i wonder whether issit i am stupid or i didnt work hard enuff. i dun wanna find excuses for my terrible results anymore.. i hate this life. i hate my life. i hate everything now.

2005-10-07T07:49:00.000-07:00

alrights. so the promos are over.. its been such a long time since i felt so at ease and happy. i was so elated right after the physics ytd even though i noe i wun do well.. so after that i dated yang out.. long time no see her le.. stupid ouyang.. pls date me out more often.! lols.. we went to eat and watched the movie 'the myth'. its a pretty nice movie.. benson, jun and yuyan tagged along too..

hmm so went ard walk walk.. bought stuffs.. and ytd i tried to curl my hair for the first time!. hahaha i looked so matured. i think i still stick to straight hair for now beta.. anyone wan to date me.. i am free like jf. always available.. unless i have other plans. so pls date me out ppl! leave ur name and contact number.. i will get back to u soon. LOL!! below is a list of things i wanna do:

1. go shopping
2. kbox-ing
3. learn roller blading
4. cycling
5. work
6. chiong with yt
7. secret

a simple girl i shall be.. t-shirt and jeans only..

2005-10-01T07:19:00.000-07:00

what the fuck am i doing here at this time?

everyone is mugging their time away. and here i am wasting my time changing blogskin and updating my blog~ argghs. can someone jus kindly slap me hit me or kill me to wake me up? if this goes on i will fail my promos man.

there seems to be so much to study but yet.. whenever i study there seems to be nothing to study. sounds contradictory eh? feeling darn frustrated now... i cant seem to get anything done at all. where has the good old hardworking me gone to? can even remember clearly the times when i chiong for my o levels.. now i am jus slacking.

please save me someone.. i dun wanna fail my promos. but i jus cant seem to get down to studying.. halim said that i dun look like a jc student.. cos i am way too too too slack to be one. i suppose jc students are all muggers. argggh! why cant i jus mug like them? arggh!!!! c'mon grace, go mug! u can do it... oh shucks. i doubt it.

fuck the promos. i hate promos. i hate exams. get away from me!

2005-09-26T06:43:00.000-07:00

promos are coming. about two days away.. i aint hardworking. someone told me that i seem to worry about other things more than my promos. i guess so~ lols. i jus finished some revision on chem phy and maths only. and its like the tip of the iceberg. i am prepared to retain.. lols. seriously no motivation..

i miss you
i miss you
i jus wan u to be by my side
i miss you a lot a lot

and finally, i love you

2005-09-17T04:36:00.000-07:00

promos are jus round the corner.. about ten days away. i am not exactly hardworking either.. been stressed out and tired this entire week.. partly due to EOM and project work.. there seems to be tonnes of work to do. and today was a slack day.. slept away my day till 1 in the afternoon. guess i was really worn out after ytd nite.

i cant find the motivation to work hard although i keep telling myself that i have to in order to attain gd results. seeing all my friends working so hard somewhat made me feel even more stressed than ever... we had this tsunami talk in LT5 yesterday and it affected me a lot. so i bought the three dolls for ten dollars. its a little ex.. but i was thinking i spend more than ten dollars on other stuff when i go shopping so why not do a bit of gd deed? (:

i really hope that our sch will organise the trip to khao lak or ban nan kem for us. i will be the first to join! something the person said etched deep in my heart "we have always been living peaceful days, we are so isolated from the rest of the pain in this world that we fail to empathise with other sufferings and we become apathetic". jus how true it is?

i am starting to think that maybe i am more fortunate compared to them even though life might not be smooth for me.. i have gone thru a lot of things which many of my friends dun need to go thru.. i have lost things that many of my friends take for granted. indeed, my life is full of obstacles and hurdles.. but it is these obstacles that made me ever a stronger and cheerful person. i guess that life will always be full of challenges for me...........

2005-09-12T03:30:00.000-07:00

i got five things to declare here:
[o1.] when i smile and laugh, it doesn mean that i am ok and that i dun care.
[o2.] dun push things too far.
[o3.] there is a limit to my patience and tolerance.
[o4.] one negative comment is enuff, i dun need constant reminders.
[o5.] when i dun flare up it doesnt mean that i am not angry

ok. done with my updating.. maybe i shall cease updating for a while.. gonna chiong for my promos. even though i am slack.. i dropped MTA. so i shall work extra hard for my physics and maths. i am sure i can do it! hahas. (:

loving you......

2005-09-10T05:22:00.000-07:00

time for another round of update. it is now the holidays period.. one week of holidays. sighs. was it even a holiday? i didnt go for the leadership camp.. not that i deemed it useless.. but i was too tired to go after my consecutive days of working. wednesday thurdays and friday.. tutorial days.. it was jus like normal sch day.. from 8 to 4. wads the point of having holidays if they are so gonna call us back often. sighs. guess i am whining too much.

initially planned to go out with ouyang but i decided to pangseh her last minute for the sushi buffet with my class. LoL. so sorries. met up with benson, wenjun, kfc, yuefeng and aikleng for the buffet. i think i wasted benson's money. LoL. feeling satisfied after today's meal.. since all my cravings for anything have gone. i had crystal jade, mos and sushi this week. LoL. getting fatter everyday. sobs.

guess i really really have to embark on my slimming down project when sch reopens. if not i will be left on the shelves for sure. LoL. =X i am stuck for words again. nothing to update.. life is so so routined. so dun bug me to update ppl.. there really isnt anything to update. my senior asked me out today.. but i rejected him. its weird. shrugs. hahaha.. jf will noe who is my senior. oh yeah.. and i had to eat wasabi twice becos of that stupid game. LoL.

i now understand why i dun fall for anyone.........
its because i all along had him in my heart....

2005-09-04T09:29:00.000-07:00

my birthday is officially over. here's an official thanks to those who wished me happy birthday.. i was really touched by some. cos we seldom keep in contact.. but they still remembered my birthday.. chinwei etc etc. first to wish me happy birthday was chuen full!! lols.. he smsed me first followed by jin hua. LOL. jf was the first to wish me face to face. LOL!. =)

its kinda pathetic having to work on my bdae too~ haha.. but i tot it was fruitful. i was slacking away like no one's business and i still managed to clinch seven deals. lucky me! lols.. after work i got the biggest surprise of my life. hahas.. we were helping to pack the stuff and everything when jf came over to our booth to join us. so we were waiting and waiting for chuen full and to help out in the packing of stuff.

we were all set out and ready to go home when he arrived. LOL. it was chuen full with the big big cake from bengawan solo. i really got a surprise.. i have to say it was a beta surprise than jun's one! LOL ooops. cos i truly had no idea at all. cos i was kinda feeling upset over sth and they brigtened my day! lols. i heard that all my colleagues chipped in money for the cake. it really really really touched me. i was almost on the verge of tears. LOL. ricky johnathan2 also wished me. LOL. i really have the best colleagues.

so we went to eat the cake and they sang me a bdae song. LOL. we ate the cake.. and kenny wished me too! yeah i remembered now.. that stupid chee meng acherli forgot my bdae!! grrr. LOL. thanks chuenfull, jiafeng, halim, eric, thalal and rusdi! especially thalal. i only noe him for two days!! lols. it was the best bdae i had..

and yes, he was very sweet. he said that he wanted to be the last to wish me happy birthday so that i will remember his wishes forever. LOL. and to think i acherli misunderstood him.. and i was really prepared to ignore him for the rest of my life. LOL. thanks everyone for giving me such an unforgettable birthday!

2005-09-01T23:06:00.000-07:00

okies a quick update. ytd i went to work at suntec comex 2oo5. i think the whole day was great.. kana cheated by ricky la. the comex started at 12 and he told me it started at 11. made me rush and rush and even had to call jf to wake her up. LOL. pretty long time since i last stood 9 hours. it was terrible. my leg was pain and sour. LOL. fortunately i managed to sell 4. $90 on the first day is a gd start.

close shop at around 9. went to eat kfc with eric, jf and chuen full. lols.. i wanted to eat mac de k! these three noobs told me to eat kfc. kfc had nothing at that hour.. no lemon tea. no this no that. yucks. and thank u chuen full for treating me kfc. LOL. he is such a big water tank. finished that big big cup of water in no time. omg. LOL. reached home at 11 plus, took a bath and chatted to halim for a while. oh yeah, he came and gave me the pressie. i dunno whether to feel happy or irritated? -shrugs- sometimes i wish he will jus get off my back.

today is a nice friday. i wanted to go to sch.. but i couldnt make myself wake up so i ponned.. i knew i disappointed wenjun they all by not turning up especially when many turned up cos of me. LOL. so i decided to sleep in till 1130 and meet them in sch. but me this ultimate big pig.. slept till 1215. rushed to meet them and i was given a big surprise. LOL. when i reached sch, there they were with the big choco cake. so they sang me a birthday song and i cut the cake. i was touched.

wenjun they all still bluffed me that they didnt buy any present for me.. but they did.. the wallet that i have been craving for! lols. the card they wrote meant a lot to me too.. i felt so loved today. benson said that he is going to treat to me sushi buffet! yeah. looking forward. yuefeng still owe me my pressie! lols.. i am mei nu for the next week he claims.

thank u wenjun, chenhui, kahfong, kok swee, karthik, bay hung, aik leng, zelun, benson and yuefeng for giving me such a memorable pre-birthday bash. did i miss anyone out? i hope not. lols.

2005-08-29T05:04:00.000-07:00

today was a fucked up day. pardon me for the usage of vulgarities. why? cos i am so so pissed off by some ppl. told them to get ready the cards by today. how many acherli did?? only chenhui did the card. i dun mind if u tell me that u didnt complete or u haven done yet. pls dun give me that innocent look and say ''huh? wad card?" as if i have not given any instructions at all. my instructions were clear!

i dun wish to be the vice chairman also ok! since i am given the post, the only thing i can do is to fulfill my responsibilities and liabilities. i jus need u guys' cooperation and understanding. its so damn hard when no one is willing to co-operate with u. i was damn angry with someone whom i tot was my gd friend. and come to think of it, i am still angry with him. i shall not mention names.

how many ppl was willing to accompany me to buy the teachers' day present?? only a few turned up. others got reasons like i am busy, i have other things etc etc. FINE LA! i do everything myself can!!! u have ur things i have mine too!! why must i do all these unnecessary things for all of u? its not as if i will graduate with a better testimonial or wad. its the sense of responsiblity ok.. and this job is not rewarding at all. how many will actually come up to me and say ' hey grace, thanks for everything u have done for this class?' i bet NONE.

at the end of the day, who will be scolded for not doing anything well? it is always the student leaders fault. i have no control over a lot of things.. why cant u all jus cooperate with me? u think i like to do all these extra stuff?! i dun have a choice. u guys jus take for granted that i will always clear up the mess for u all.. its a taxing job. and sad to say, our class spirit is ZERO. can u all spare a thought for me sometimes.. thanks al ch jun and ben.

avete rotto il mio cuore

2005-08-24T08:43:00.000-07:00

updates~ first thing first. thanks so much nik. for leaving me so many interesting comments and helping me with my assignment. LOL!. there is nothing much to update really. life is mundane, routined and boring. do i even need to stress on the fact that i simply have no life? i am robbed of it. alrights, robbed sounds rather heavy to be used. who cares?

i was rushing my maths tutorial and watching the encore of the national day rally at the same time. i must admit that PM Lee had really won my respect for him. its jus the way he engages with the audience and how he puts his point across so simply. i nv tot that national day rally was interesting before.. but after his rally, i mus admit that it was interesting and enriching. the points he addresses is of utmost significance and importance. i really tot he had done an excellent job.

it isnt easy to engage the audience in your speech for about a few hours. but he managed to do that with a snap of his fingers.. even though he used different languages to rally, the audience never once drifted off. not even me! LOL. i like the part when he showed us the video on tao gei not enuff and tao gei never enuff. a video can show a thousand words indeed. same ppl but the attitude they have really changes everything. if only our lecturers can be like that.. i guess i will always look forward to lectures then. LOL.

i felt the harry potter and the half-blood prince wasnt as interesting as the order of phoenix. disappointed me with the abrupt ending. shrugs. oh wells.

my life ie brilliant, my love is pure. i love YOU.

2005-08-15T05:20:00.000-07:00

yay finally the common test is over!! i am liberated from all sorts of mugging torture and boredom. LOL. whew~ feeling pretty relieved currently. must enjoy myself as much as I can before i get back my predictable disastrous results. physics today was holy shit. i put in so much effort.. it still comes back to square one. sure fail. i was damn panicky cos only left 20 min and i still have about three quarter of the paper blank~ hmmms.

went back last fri with sy jf to eat ban mian. den on the way, jf saw a huge cockroach that was roaming around. so she started screaming at the top of her voice.. and i didnt noe wad was happening.. i was frantically searching for wad she saw. i panicked too and scream with her. all eyes on the road and bus stop were on us. LOL. and then i saw the big cockroach. LOL. it was kinda hilarious la. sy was the most calm among us. LOL.

we had chinese A test today. we didnt study for it. so thruout the 2.5 hrs i was staring and stoning. but somehow i managed to crap out 4 pages. better than that jf.. for a 25 mark question she only wrote 3 to 6 lines. LOL. at least i wrote two pages full of crap. haha. nvm la.. going to drop le.

today went to jp with the gals to watch wedding crashers. its was a pretty nice show.. but somehow i jus felt that the duration was a bit long? or was it because i felt that some parts were a bit boring? -shrugs- i wanted to watch the maid... but after seeing the trailer. i am scared! haha but i still feel like watching.. fickle minded me. friday is shopping spree time le bei~ yeahs.

someday, we are all going to lose our loved ones. but i am not going to. at least not right now. cos the person i love is jus standing right in front of me. - wedding crashers.

2005-08-06T22:39:00.000-07:00

oh wells, maybe i really said the wrong thing ytd nite. but i really didnt mean to.. i think someone is angry with me. okies. i agree that i shouldnt have mentioned the PAST. but i didnt noe.. cant do anything if someone stays angry with me. didnt reply me and stuffs de. hais. sorry. i really really didnt mean it k? dun angry liao pls.

wenn ich alles falsch sagte
bitte nehmen Sie es nicht zum Herzen
je n'ai pas voulu dire ces choses i dit
ich liebe Sie wirklich
verzeihen Sie mir bitte

cut my hair ytd.. hmm satisfied definitely. gd job thomas!
to you noe who, i dun think u will be able to figure that out anymore.=P

2005-08-05T05:58:00.000-07:00

alrights. this whole week has been a really busy and tiring day for me.. full of extra tutorials for physics. gosh. my hated subject. -.='' so imagine me stoning there and not absorbing anything at all for those extra tutorials.. hais. wonder when i am going to pass my physics. common test is jus seven days later. gosh!. can anyone jus slap me and tell me not to be so slack? lols.

nth special this week.. hmm. except for xh's bdae cos we celebrated for her.. gave a big suprise i think. LOL. on that day we simply ignored her.. as if we forgotten about her bdae. guess she must have felt hurt. LOL. and xh!! why must u write my uglified thing in ur blog.. abt the go toilet one. lols. then had the bdae cake and everyone started using the cream to smear the face. i realise that this is so common. LOL. luckily.. i was NOT attacked.!! lols. wahahah.

had napfa lo. cleared every station!! lols. damn happy man. although i still wan to retake my standing broad jump. i jus cant jump. LOL. so in the end.. today whole body was aching. and yuefeng they all still tickle me! i seriously dunno whether to laugh or to shout out in pain cos my waist area there pain ma. LOL. den some of our class girls cheated. yucks. its so unfair to us who really did everything. sux man. i am not mentioning names. wads the use of u cheating? pls la. get a life man. bitches.

will be mugging common test all the way to next week. sianified. luckily there is a lot of holiday in between so i can take my time to plan. seriously hope i will do beta than last time cos the weightage is higher. wish me gd luck bei.

i vraiment amelo mucho
hij is zo zoet

2005-07-28T05:58:00.000-07:00

shall do an update for today. gonna be a short one.... not really in the mood to update also. today had our A level SPA. mr chua always say its the A LEVEL SPA. A LEVEL SPA.THE REAL THING.i dunno wad happend to me!! i wasnt nervous.. i wasnt panicky. never happen to me before..

my titration always been very accurate consistently de! wad happen today? i jus SCREWED the whole thing up. i can see my A flying away from me. how come my reading was so different?? i did SIX titrations and i still got the same reading!! why!! hais.. gonna fail my SPA le. somemore i didnt ask for the reading when i could have! i am so gonna fail..

was really down after SPA and my tears were almost comin out.. chen hui didnt dare to talk to me.. cos she was scared she would make things worse. LOL. then when yue feng came and console me.. i really wanted to jus break down. but didnt. hais~ this is the first time in history i done so BADLY for my practical. i dunno wad happen. sobs. i done my best le... i dunno wad happen. hais.

but anyway.. jus wanna thank all those who had been there for me.. yuefeng especially. lols.. he really consoled me a lot. and i still remember he say he wanna treat me eat sakae sushi to cheer me up. wenjun aikleng chen hui xiao hui kahfong chuenfull and halim. was really glad to have u guys there to console me. love ya lots. maybe like wad chuenfull said.. ren zhong hui you shi shou de yi tian.. we must all learn from our mistakes.......

2005-07-15T05:48:00.000-07:00

alrights i am back to update. super duper duper long time since i last did my update. been quite busy these few weeks.. mainly cos i a bit lazy also larhs. hahahas. kana nagged by wenjun everyday in schh.. pathetic me. so here i am. full of tests these two weeks.. study study everyday.. finishing tutorials.. and burning lotsa midnight oil. where were those stressless days?

other than those never ending tests, i learnt a new skill and that is squash. we had squash for pe. with yf, wj, xh, kf, zl and al.. wonder if i miss anyone else.. hahahas. it was darn fun!! of cos i was so pro.. coach praised me ok!! lols. =X then first time in jc kana scolded by prinicpal cos i forgot to bring tie on monday!!! then had to go general office do test. kana laughed and suan by mr chua! yikes. hahahas. sobs.

den got back our progress reports not long ago.. its was very very disappointing for me. i noe i didnt work hard enuff.. i noe i didnt try hard enuff.. didnt bother to do my hwk.. didnt bother to study for tests.. i am jus not as hardworking as last year.. at least now i finally sink into reality. i really have to work hard. and i WILL!! wenjun!! i will beat u!!i wun lose to u again le.. hahahas.

General Paper- B3. 69/100. jus ONE more mark to my A!! wenjun got A2 and he was damn happy. cos finally he won me in english.. but i think he TYCO one. let u happy for once only~~
Physics- O. 48/100. wad the hell. my phy sucks to the core.
Chemistry- B. 68/100. ok larhs.. aiming A for my common test.
MTA- C. mainly cos i didnt do my hwk.. kana minus mark. LOL. if not bai lao shi say i should get A.
Maths- E. YAY!! i passed. LOL. i will work harder de.

disappointed with my results.. i think i will fail all my tests this week. chem wasnt gd. phy dun even need to mention. maths .. fail one cfm. LOL. nvm. i will work harder! dun look down on my willpower.. hahahs. had PC ytd.. so hiong. hahas. my legs hands everywhere pain! look forward to monday though.. squash time! tmls going to sch to play with S13. hahas.

2005-06-27T04:45:00.000-07:00

back to update. today is the start of a brand new term again.. kinda reluctant to wake up in the morning cos really v tired. ytd slept like 12 plus 1 like that~ because i was waiting for zp junior to help me do something whilst doing my chinese. managed to crap out a lot of stupid stuffs to make up the 600 words only to realise that we needa write 800 words. hais heck le lahs. wadever~ den today zp junior sent the thing back to me and i really thought it was damn useful. thanks a lot!!

found that today's lesson was quite alright. maths was jus revising differentiation adn i really love differentiation cos last time ms tan gave us lots of practices on it. hmms. finally i see some light in maths.. chemistry was interesting as usual. shall aim an A yeahs. LOL. a lot of tests coming up next week le.. maths and chem lecture tests. sian. last week had chinese AO common test and i had no idea i was doing a common paper. haahs.

think i am going sick any moment. a lot were asking me how come i look so~ sick. LOL. my nose giving me troubles recently. sianified. alrights, initially wanted to pon PW lecture cos i dun find it really useful and its like one hour.. but in the end i felt so guilty and decided to go for it. after PW lecture there is a short meeting with mr oh. i straightaway knew it was about the holidays lesson. i successfully managed to skip two times. with dubious reasons of cos~

so met him, and he was asking us how come so little people turned up for his lesson during holidays and the first thing he asked was " grace, wad happen. how did u inform the class?" hais. so i had to tell him i used to class relay system where i called someone and asked them to call others. hais. den i sorta felt that throughtout the lesson he was trying to reprimand me in an indirect way. he was saying that i must go back and devise a plan so that communication wun break down.

i felt kinda unjustified cos i really did call the people. i dunno if they had any misunderstandings or wad de mahs~ i was trying hard to explain to him abt the miscommunication and stuffs de. but i also felt a big guilty lahs as i didnt do my job well. i should have.. somehow or another maybe inform the class myself or wad de. next time not gonna be vice chairperson le lahs.. this kind of job is so dots. sobs. i really felt so.. dunno how to say lo~ hais. dunno whether its my fault or not.

2005-06-24T23:50:00.000-07:00

time for another round of updating after constant nagging from mr tay wen jun. lols. always come bother me in msn to ask me update. i noe u miss my updates lahs. LOL. these few days.. not really in the mood to do any updates lo. so many things happening around me.. that sometimes i am indirectly affected by it also. sians.

i learnt that we must really noe how to treasure our friends. so i must treasure bryce also. LOL. i deliberately write de mahs.. if not later he will say that he made of glass again. ooops. dunno since when i got the feelings.. but friends are everything in my life. haha.. i dun really need millions of friends. i jus need a few true friends. like yang, jf, sy they all~

tmls finally i can go out with ouyang le!! yeahs. miss her darn lots. ever since she went poly and i went jc.. our life are so busy that we seldom have time to catch up with each other yarhs? lols. gotta do lots lots lots of catching up with her. missing the old times when we both went for co and stuffs de. LOL. and si ouyang lA! so ma fan de.. i one month holiday hor.. only can go out one time. lols. and i dun like to go out on sunday de!!!! hahas. alright la. wei le ni. i xi shen my sunday time lo. hahas. love me ehs?

had GP common test on thursday. i felt it was alright lehs.. i mean my timing was jus nice lo. write finish at the dot. whew~ no blanks no nothing. *prays hard*. hope to get at least a B. haha. if not later will kana suan by ppl again.. and i have to say this. english A2 dun mean that GP will also A hor! i dun like it when ppl say that my english gd. oops. weird ehs? ok la.. these few days.. having stupid feelings. jus dun care me. kong yi ji sux. LOL. i dunno how to write the MTA essay. sian. prepared to fail liaos.

il a dit cela:" les types sont plus murs apres armee.types de date qui sont passes par l'armee avant." se refere-t-il ? j'espere ainsi. je l'aime plus journalier!

i am not DAO!! i am not dAo!! i am not DaO!

2005-06-21T05:45:00.000-07:00

found this somewhere which i thought it was pretty meaningful. especially can apply to berry. so berry, this is for u. grape jie jie treat u v good de ok.

Missing someone is a terrible but at the same time, a sweet feeling.
U will be sitting around wondering if u meant anything to him.
Thinking if he ever cares about u.
Rushing to the phone once it rings hoping that it's him.
Looking out of the window hoping that he will surprise u by appearing downstairs.
Sitting in front of the television but thinking of him, missing the final episode of your favourite show.
Laying on your bed, thinking of the last time u were out together.
Thinking of how nice it will be to sit under the stars again, talking about everything, your dreams, plans, future.
Logging on to the internet hoping to see him online.
When u realise that he isn't online and did not return your page, u will start worrying if he is okay.
Missing someone is a way of growing up i guess.
It exposes u to loneliness.
It teaches u how to cope with being lonely and let u know that there is actually a feeling known as emptiness.
Sometimes it feels good to miss someone.
But missing someone and not knowing if he is feeling the same is terrible.

confused once again~ am i really more impt? or issit just part of his sweet talk.

2005-06-18T06:04:00.000-07:00

okies shall do a quick update before i get bugged again. today working day again.. i decided to work already lahs.. haha.. so went to meet kenny and jia yu at city hall. saw jiayu at the train. so we were quite late lahs cos according to ricky, i am supposed to reach at 1030. but who cares. LOL!. then today no panasonic com to sell.. got a briefing on PDA which i totally blur down there. tried to listen but dun understand so i pretend i understand lo~ hahas.

then slack slack slack. got to noe si hao, zi ping and rui ching beta lahs when we four went to slack at the coffee shop. LOL! very fun lahs. cos we were discussing lots of stupid things. then kana cheated lo~ cos ryan treat me eat a tidbit. then when i eat rite, realised its wasabi. omg. i went totally white.. wasabi sux. LOL! so after that i went to trick kenny and eric. but then kenny dares to eat so not fun.. eric's reaction is the most hilarious of all lahs. LOL!. initially wanted to trick chuan yong and rusdi but they all noe already so not fun. LOL.

i was supposed to be at the showroom downstairs lahs.. but then too many ppl serving and i wanna slack. so i went up to the third floor to help out. hahas. learnt a lot of new computer stuffs lo~ i am clever la. LOL. den play aruond with rusdi nelson they all lo~ nelson selling samsung.. but he nv say anything jiu sell two liao. JF!! envy ma?? lols. then soon time flies to 8 and we closed shop. before that ricky was telling me to give him four numbers cos he wanna buy 4D. den i so paiseh. he keep calling me lucky star.. then i also dunno wad to give. so anyhow press 4 numbers for him. LOL. ricky made me so paiseh sias.. lols.

den went home with chuan yong.. he treat me take cab home mahs. lols.. so good rite. LOL. very ex nehs.. about $10 plus lo~ haha. thanks ah!! lols. so i quickly pangseh the rest and went home.. hmmms. so tired. i think one thing that halim said really sank deep into my heart "although the pay is not high, the people here are very nice"
i totally agree lo~ hais.. i will really miss them..... <3

2005-06-14T08:29:00.000-07:00

kenny, jiayu, me and jf during pc show at funan.

me and jf zhilian

us again!

these are some of the lamer photos we took during the show at funan using ASUS W5. it was a really nice laptop i have to admit.. but its so damn ex.. about $3099. sianified.. if melvin sell me half price i sure buy lo. hahas.. missed the two days with them.. it was really fun. i am tempted to work again but then.. i scared i will lose out on my hwk. HOW!! hais. i really in a quandrary.

hate the feeling of not having a firm decision.. jus like me always. fickle minded i am. yeahs.. oh wells, shall do an update. today went for maths tutorial in the morning.. initially i thought it was compulsory. so i went of cos.. then realised that it wasnt really compulsory. kana cheated.. haha. wadever. i was late.. but ms ho was even later. whew~ then after two hours of lecture.. acherli nothing went into my head.. haha. i was jus.. one ear in one ear out. dunno why..

i noe i am slack. gotta work hard i noe.. but then there seems to be no motivation. or rather.. i dun like the jc life. but since i have chosen this path.. wad can i dO? hais.. gotta bear with it for another 2 years. should have gone poly.. wadever. shant talk about it.. today me yf wj al went to meet zl at yishun to go to his mums eatery. yuan lai is sell shangai food. woo~ my fav. especially those dumplings and stuffs de.. yum. then wj so ma fan de.. this also cannot that also cannot. alamak. so diff to serve.

aunty didnt expect us to pay.. which made me so guilty. so i ended up helping her keep plates and stuffs de.. then they started to call me maria. so bad lehs.. aunty treat us eat.. must at least do sth in return ma~ u all de conscience where le?? lols. then wait for fei fei to come. fei fei is zl de sis. so cute.. haha. very sweet and pretty. haah.. so i held her hand.. and we walked. i keep telling her to call wj se lang. and she really did.. LOL!. so funny.. lotsa things happen. lazy to really type it out.. feifei is cute. thats the main objective. haahs. thats all.

should i call? should i not call? wad the hell? hate the way i am feeling now.

2005-06-12T08:37:00.000-07:00

ok shall do my update. got lots of nagging from lots of ppl to update. eh.. dunno where i should start writing lehs. hmmm.. these two days been working at the Funan IT Mall with jf lo. is basically doing the same things over and over again.. selling ASUS laptops this time.. all are special promotion. but customers get deterred when they hear that they are going to get the display set. sadded.

ok knew some new colleagues again.. naming time, si hao, shirly, hyde.. plus eric. acherli got two i forgot to ask the name. haha and of cos our big boss melvin. LOL. then kenny and jiayu lo~ got to noe kenny and jiayu beta during these two days.. and we did lots of crazy things together which i shall update later on. haah. the first day i managed to sell one.. haha. sales was BAD. no ppl at all.. we were jus rotting and playing around.

then during the two days there was this kiddy performance going on.. about thomas and his frends. thomas is acherli a blue train that goes shaga shaga woo woo~~.. then i have been watching that performance over and over again. until i can memorise every sentence they are going to say later. haha.. the second day was more fun cos we were dancing along and shouting together with the little kids. me kenny and jf imitated the three ppl on stage. and it was kinda fun.. but throw face. LOL. then the rest of them were watching us as if we were mad.

then there was this laptop with webcam so me jiayu kenny jf and eric took lotsa pics with it.. lamer pic la. den when we take the family photo i always the one to screw up.. cos i forgot the cam is a bit laggy. then a lot of funny pics lO!! haha.. got one is open mouth close mouth.. they all laugh at me. so bad. and then.. the fuhua gang pic. the best of all.. cos i didnt screw it up.. finally~ haha. then we kept playing until the company next to us say " the com spoil liao la" hah.. omg. we four were laughing like mad.. haha.

then now.. hmms jus to add sth.. charles is so lame. hahaha.. so so so lame. pls read the below.
x-dEstiny`` ]] + love is not always blackk and w h i t e-* ||vintage|| says:
hais
'"' låèrzä` [[ now i'm here to stay,love can be so boring ]] says:
lows ?
do u all get the joke? hahas. oooops. he is gonna kill me. stop pushing me to update charles. haha. and now.. i got a personal massager. haha.

2005-06-05T22:15:00.000-07:00

yeaps i am back once again. misSed me terribly rite? been such a long time since i last did my update. cos i have been pretty busy the last few days. working at the IT show at expo lo. it wasnt really a new experience for me cos i have been thru it once during march when it was held at suntec. but i tot that my luck was beta at suntec? or was it because expo was much smaller?

haha.. introduced the job to jf and chuen full lo. met up with her over the last few days. she wanted to eat her roti boy and i wanted to drink my coffee bean but both of us didnt get to do that at ALL. lols. cuz i was always late.. cant really get used to waking up so early in the morning then having to travel for one hour plus to EXPO. lols. so much has happened yet i dunnoe where to start writing. knew a lot more new colleagues this time other than the usual ones. people like jay, ian, liza, chuan yong, a malay guy i forgot his name ooops. and my beloved and cute old colleagues eric, rusdi and halim. haha. got to noe jf colleauges as well, joe and edmund. LOL.

sales was alright for me though, haha.. cos i sold about 20 computers laptops in all lo.. i think that its quite an achievement already la.. cos the flow of people wasnt really good. sometimes theres a sudden influx of people then sometimes there is none at all.. so i always end up crapping and playing with jay. see chiobus and shuai ges lo. haha.. the food there at expo taste nice too~ haha.. behind those stalls la.. but its a bit ex lo! one cup of small milo charge me $2.50!! cheat me money!!

been a wonderful experience for me.. then i realised that yuan lai poly students dun really like jc students. we were discussing about it ma.. haha.. but i shall break that stupid urm.. view? cos not all jc students are those kind of nerds and selfish ppl. i am not lo! haha.. then saw some very cute customers. got one boy so small and cute.. he kissed me on the cheek! hehs. and a baby girl also!!! they are so kawaii neh!! i take fotos of them le lo~ haha. so cute!!! muacks. jangan curi busines aku eric!!! haha. that is indonesian language. i learnt from rusdi de.. i also learnt lu pugi mati. and sembilan. ok.. then they were teasing me.. cos ytd i sold 9 com and rusdi asked me "berapa?" i was so busy at that time ma.. so i didnt noe wad i was saying so i replied "similan" when i wanted to say "sembilan" omg. then they kept laughing cos si mi lan ma.. in hokkien. if u get wad i mean?

haha.. then the last day went to eat BK with eric, rus, halim, joe, jay, kolja and jf. had a nice time crapping but eric always kana disconnected with us de.. cos he too tired le.. have to work ma. joe so crappy. he and chuen full make a gd match. LOL! i wanted to take photos of them de.. but they so not cooperative. dun wan to let me take one. LOL! but i still took anyway. haha. really a nice experience. love all of them lo. thank you all for making my stay at expo such a wonderful and memorable one. and eric!! u still owe me my sushi. haha. ok yes, i succeeded in molesting jf once again. but i wanted to save her.. got accused of molesting her. so .. the ungrateful. withouht me save her hor, she would have flopped down on the floor dead. imagine her sprawled at the floor~~~ whaha.

2005-05-31T02:43:00.000-07:00

due to overwhelming requests, i decided to update my blog. finally? haha sorry to upset fans of my blog like jf and yang! lols. yay update le must leave more comments lo~ my comments box are so empty. haha.. okies shall start from ytd. ytd was the pre u seminar. our class gotta help out as student helpers.. some as pillow guardians some as signboards and ushers.

met up with yf, jun, al, zl, chen and xh at the mac at about 830 to eat breakfast. but everyone was late.. next time i not gonna be the first one to reach le lo! haha.. everytime i am the first to reach lehs. v sian one lo.. i ownself rot there. hahas. then yf came and the rest slowly filed in. lols. then took bus to sch.. yf and al v bad lehs. keep saying zl is faggot. v bad u noE!!

then met up with the rest of the classmates. surprisingly, she turned up today for the pre u seminar. no gastric pain ah??? no stomachache ah?? lols. ok S13 will understand who i am trying to say here. this stupid.. biatch. hahas. then took catered bus to NTU. NTU acherli quite ulu lehs. very isolated from a lot of places. set up the signboards with al, paste here paste there.. then went to join the pillow guardians. helped them out. time flies real fast. then first batch of students arrived.. from PJC. the SLO got to them and after that we got scolded by mr leow for not being alert and stuffs. but seriously, i dun think its our fault lO!!

after the scolding, i perked up and took initiative to lead the respective groups to their rooms and stuffs de. i took some from NYJC, ACJC, SAJC, HCI. these are the prominent ones i can remember. and one guy from RJC talked to me and asked me abt the school.. he seems to be so english. i cannot really talk in english. so i think i made a fool outta myself. chatted with the SAJC girls.. i think to them, taking MTA is crazy. haha.. cos she was pretty shocked when i said i took MTA. LOL. i had fun talking to some of the SA people. they are really friendly.. and those from HCI and NYJC. made some new friends here and there.

went back home after going JP. they had their dinner while i rotted.. cos dun really feel hungry. yf is sick le. must take care wors!! lols. ooops. dun be too touched when u read this. LOL. gonna start work soon.. kinda feeling happy cos i will get to see all my colleagues again! lols.. miss them lots lo!! so happy that we will see each other agian. especially rusdi!!! miss him lots. long time no chat with him le.. haha.. and can earn money again.. to shop. now having great singapore sale ma. LOL!

The truth is tearing up my heart
I can't recognize this place
The endless road without a stop sign
Can't even find a stranger this time
Why am i still holding back my tears
In this loneliness there's nothing to fear
Every chord still seems a wonder
How we could be together
Every time i ask if this would be the last
Why am i still talking to myself
Hoping you will have the keys to my cell
Every song might calm the weather but it just draws me deeper
How do i get out of this I think i never will
A crystal forming in the eye Maybe this would be the last
The winding path down my face
Till i begin to taste the bitterness inside

2005-05-23T05:42:00.000-07:00

ok shall update on ytd. we went for the class project preparation on sunday~.. was supposed to meet sunday at 10. initially i thought i would be the latest to reach but then i was the FIRST to reach.. not to mention.. some even reached at 1030.. most of them reached at 1010 like that.. but mr TAY wen jun. reached at 1030 plus. wait until we wanna die lo u noe! and how can u deliberate try to be late.

alright nvm.. then when everyone finally reached. we went off the big bookshop to buy our materials for the project.. shop here and there and went to beryl's hse. we quickly settled down and tried to melt the wax.. we failed terribly and not to mention there was some BIG noise pollution going on at the back with someone playing the piano. dunnoe who hor? LOL!. so after trying out on someone's cloth, we decided to use only the wax crayons to colour and dye the cloth. so do do do do. time flies~

i was supposed to buy lunches for the rest but i was kinda lazy to go all the way to clementi central again~ somemore wenjun they all say downstairs got cafe so me xiaohui and siti went down lo with wj al. the two guys played pool while we ate some snacks. shortly after, we played the table soccer. it was so much fun! haha.. me and jun one team ma.. but he always always let the ball go in one lehs.. i think all the goals is i score one lo!! lols. then sat and chatted while beryl and the rest took art materials down for us to draw our greeting cards.

sat and draw and got complimented by many~~ say that i very artistic!! lols. then found out that acherli kok swee also quite talented in art. LOL! alright.. then started clearing up and helped wenjun play pool~ i help in goal two balls inside the hole ok!! lols. then chatted a while and went off.. kok swee qamarul karthik al went to arcade while me wj yf xh siti and zl went to mac to to rot and stone~~ then xh and siti went home first.. so i did my GP there with the guys and left shortly.

today went out with ouyang.. met up with her at je~ then went to cine de kbox. sing sing sing.. but today not fun! cos i have sore throat and i cannot really sing. kept coughing! the rice was nice~ then walk walk and took neo prints with yang yang. long time no take with her le~ hahas. after that went to far east with her lo.. pei her shop for clothes and became her maid.. ask me help her take this and that de~ haha. after that went to meet up with the guys and yt at mac to do hwk. it was fruitless. did nth at all practically. i am in holiday mood~

took bus home and saw zhiyao on the bus.. so crapped and chatted with him a while.. although we are in the same school.. its like we never see each other in sch before. LOL!. so he haben tell me who is the girl yet.. haha.. nvm la.. i slowly guess. thats all le ba.. haha. lub u!! haha. =P

il y a une limite a ma patience
je ne suis pas petit mais il ne signifie pas que je ne deviendrai pas fache
l'arret m'insultant comme la est aucun demain

2005-05-20T05:12:00.000-07:00

yeahs finally back to update. if not i will kana scolding by lots of people.. and first on the list will be mr tay wen jun. he has been bugging me to update since dun noe when le lohs.. today is JJ half day!! wooohhoo~~ but then ms ho made us stay back till 1030.. and i had to wait for jf that si nu ren.. lols! lucky LL room got air con.. so quite comfy lahs..

then finally 11 came and went to meet the 2 si nu ren yt and jf. then we went to jp lo.. initially me and jf wanted to eat crystal jade de.. but yt dun wan.. so we end up eating long john silver. piangs~ lols. all yt de fault lo!! lols.. k la. then so funny.. suddenly someone hit my butt. it was that stupid chieng siew.. so we plus sy and cs sat together and crap.. it was a nice time crapping with them. hahas.

then yt cs and sy went home.. me and dear jf went to orchard. took mrt there lo.. initially wanted to alight at somerset but then we missed the stop and alighted at orchard.. haha. shop shop here and there.. then went to top shop with jf. i saw a top that looked quite nice.. it was reasonable price.. but wear le so damn weird.. very filmsy and transparent.. then in the end we didnt buy anything there.

walked to heeren.. then jf approached by the same modelling agency again~ lols. i tot they wan us to donate money! lols. then i quickly walk off and ps jf. then she alone there.. then finally i went over to help her.. then i also taught her techniques to reject ppl tactfully. LOL! i am her teacher. PRAISE ME JF!! lols. then as i said went to heeren rite.. walk walk walk.. saw things but didnt buy.. i only bought my hair accesories~ finally lo. then walked to cineleisure~ bought my bag!! yay.. so happy. been eyeing that bag for dunnoe how long lo..

then walked back to heeren again when jf couldnt buy her bag cos the colour wasnt nice. hahas.. then i started to spend money!! sobs. i think i spent a bomb today.. jus becos i went to PC connect to collect my pay already. hehs. bought earring.. and a top.. i like that top alot.. although i have to admit it was kinda expensive but jf say nice so buy lo. then saw SOMEONE there. haish cannot say. me and jf de secret. lols.. someone with someone wors. XIAO XIN!! hahas. then i am going to update on jf throw face de things.

first when we walked out of the shop.. we walked past a shop selling mens briefs.. then suddenly she made a comment very loudly. " wah!! their basketBALLS very big lehs!!" then i jus stone there. LOL!. after that.. during our mrt trip to find wenyi at city hall, i wanted to grab the pole but instead i grabbed something else. OMG! i didnt want to!! then when we saw wenyi.. she called suhairi.. then very mushy ma.. then jf made a comment again~ " eeyer.. dun so mus-hy in front of us" then i was trying to tell her is pronounced as mu-shy~ but she die die also wan to say mus-hy~! lols.

money spent today: top-$39, earring-$2.50, hair accesories-$3.10, bag-$15.90.
total: $60.50!! sobs.

2005-05-15T04:40:00.000-07:00

okies i am back tuh update. very sians nothing to write. so many tests~ they all seem never ending.. and all the hwk are so hard. first time in my lifetime when i got back my chinese paper and saw that i jus merely passed with a 32/55. i am so sadded. somemore, i heard mr oh say that we did very badly for our physics test so there will be a retest. SIAN!.

feeling so sick right now. my stupid flu and fever just cant seem to go away. eating medicine doesnt seem to help in anyway. hais sian. eat anything also tasteless. no appetite at all. hate the feeling of being sick. tmls have maths test.. gotta memorise all the formulae le.. but the formulae jus cannot get themselves in my head. sian la.

one gd news is that mr koh, to celebrate our school's winning of the volleyball match, decided to have a half day next friday!! woo hoo~~ can go out with ouyang liaos. and heard fu jie say that i still have some money left at PC connect haben take. yeah!! i will be rich again le. LOL!. gotta take medicine again le~ see ya. wish me luck for tmls.

je m'ennuie de vous
neanmoins m'aimerez-vous cinq ans apres ?

2005-05-11T05:40:00.000-07:00

JJ WON THE VOLLEYBALL GIRLS' NATIONAL CHAMPIONSHIP!! YAY!!

today the whole level of JC1s were released at 11.30 to get ready to go to toa payoh stadium to support the jj girls in their volleyball matches. we were going to compete for the national championship. in the morning i was feeling kinda sicked cos have pc again~ sian lo. then me and cs were discussing whether mr tay will be there cos he is the teacher in charge mahs.. i was praying hard dun have pc lo.. LOL!

then had chemistry test today.. i felt that it was relatively alright. most of the questions i noe how to do.. abit confident. hope i can get A. i aim for full exemption from promos~ lols although it seems kinda impossible. i hate the chem teacher lo.. keep nagging one lei. feel like bashing her up.. then i think i said 'shut up' to her too loud.. she looked at me with those vicious eyes. LOL.

then had pc. today did some stretching and ran five rounds. lols. i cheated. i ran four rounds only. LOL!! then mr tay still look at me and say good. i felt like laughing.. den i wan to try to improve on my stamina. sian. gotta train harder lerhs.. nattaporn is weirdo lai de lo.. she overtook me two times lohs. wth. LOL! then released at 1030.. ate and chatted with the girls and went to change to sch uni. then took bus to stadium. was waving to yt sy they all when suddenly i felt the bus curtain on my face. dunno who put one lehs.. yt say is yuefeng. damN! lols. next time i must pay him back in his own coin. LOL!

then after that suddenly i felt my rubber band coming out and my hair came loose. duhs.. when i ask who took my rubber band no body wanted to tell me. then i was like this mad crazy woman on loose. LOL. then after my pestering they returned me.. sobs. LOL. reached the stadium and cheered. the effect was damn good lo.. everywhere is our banners. JJ rawks. then we cheered a lot a lot. i was so damn high.

then one part i cannot stand the NYJC is that they are damn insulting lo. fuckers lai de. they took their school flag and ran round the stadium to our side and waved their flag triumphantly at our side and all the NYJCians cheered. i felt damn insulted lo.. where is their sportsmanship? so dots lo. lucky JJ didnt do the same thing. we even cheered for them but i dun think they cheered for us lo. wtf. makes my impression of the JC drop to dunnoe how many miles down. LOL.

then there was one part i shouted JJ JIAYOU! then everyone turned and looked at me and i quickly pointed to my friend. LOL. i think she got a shock.. lols. i was damn high la. i was shouting when no one was shouting cos mr leow in front of me. influenced by him liaos~ lols. i keep jumping here and there. LOL! we won we won!!~ i am so happy. our efforts paid off. wads the use of flaunting ur flag when u still lost? duhs. make them even more uncivilised. JJ RULES!

we are from JJ!
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we are from JJ!
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we are from JJ!
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alamak wasapa pilipala ai bu pa~
we~ are from JJ!
we~ are from JJ~
alamak wasapa pilipala ai bu pa~
we~ are from JJ!
we~ are from JJ!!