promos are coming. about two days away.. i aint hardworking. someone told me that i seem to worry about other things more than my promos. i guess so~ lols. i jus finished some revision on chem phy and maths only. and its like the tip of the iceberg. i am prepared to retain.. lols. seriously no motivation..

i miss you
i miss you
i jus wan u to be by my side
i miss you a lot a lot

and finally, i love you

promos are jus round the corner.. about ten days away. i am not exactly hardworking either.. been stressed out and tired this entire week.. partly due to EOM and project work.. there seems to be tonnes of work to do. and today was a slack day.. slept away my day till 1 in the afternoon. guess i was really worn out after ytd nite.

i cant find the motivation to work hard although i keep telling myself that i have to in order to attain gd results. seeing all my friends working so hard somewhat made me feel even more stressed than ever... we had this tsunami talk in LT5 yesterday and it affected me a lot. so i bought the three dolls for ten dollars. its a little ex.. but i was thinking i spend more than ten dollars on other stuff when i go shopping so why not do a bit of gd deed? (:

i really hope that our sch will organise the trip to khao lak or ban nan kem for us. i will be the first to join! something the person said etched deep in my heart "we have always been living peaceful days, we are so isolated from the rest of the pain in this world that we fail to empathise with other sufferings and we become apathetic". jus how true it is?

i am starting to think that maybe i am more fortunate compared to them even though life might not be smooth for me.. i have gone thru a lot of things which many of my friends dun need to go thru.. i have lost things that many of my friends take for granted. indeed, my life is full of obstacles and hurdles.. but it is these obstacles that made me ever a stronger and cheerful person. i guess that life will always be full of challenges for me...........

i got five things to declare here:
[o1.] when i smile and laugh, it doesn mean that i am ok and that i dun care.
[o2.] dun push things too far.
[o3.] there is a limit to my patience and tolerance.
[o4.] one negative comment is enuff, i dun need constant reminders.
[o5.] when i dun flare up it doesnt mean that i am not angry

ok. done with my updating.. maybe i shall cease updating for a while.. gonna chiong for my promos. even though i am slack.. i dropped MTA. so i shall work extra hard for my physics and maths. i am sure i can do it! hahas. (:

loving you......

time for another round of update. it is now the holidays period.. one week of holidays. sighs. was it even a holiday? i didnt go for the leadership camp.. not that i deemed it useless.. but i was too tired to go after my consecutive days of working. wednesday thurdays and friday.. tutorial days.. it was jus like normal sch day.. from 8 to 4. wads the point of having holidays if they are so gonna call us back often. sighs. guess i am whining too much.

initially planned to go out with ouyang but i decided to pangseh her last minute for the sushi buffet with my class. LoL. so sorries. met up with benson, wenjun, kfc, yuefeng and aikleng for the buffet. i think i wasted benson's money. LoL. feeling satisfied after today's meal.. since all my cravings for anything have gone. i had crystal jade, mos and sushi this week. LoL. getting fatter everyday. sobs.

guess i really really have to embark on my slimming down project when sch reopens. if not i will be left on the shelves for sure. LoL. =X i am stuck for words again. nothing to update.. life is so so routined. so dun bug me to update ppl.. there really isnt anything to update. my senior asked me out today.. but i rejected him. its weird. shrugs. hahaha.. jf will noe who is my senior. oh yeah.. and i had to eat wasabi twice becos of that stupid game. LoL.

i now understand why i dun fall for anyone.........
its because i all along had him in my heart....

my birthday is officially over. here's an official thanks to those who wished me happy birthday.. i was really touched by some. cos we seldom keep in contact.. but they still remembered my birthday.. chinwei etc etc. first to wish me happy birthday was chuen full!! lols.. he smsed me first followed by jin hua. LOL. jf was the first to wish me face to face. LOL!. =)



its kinda pathetic having to work on my bdae too~ haha.. but i tot it was fruitful. i was slacking away like no one's business and i still managed to clinch seven deals. lucky me! lols.. after work i got the biggest surprise of my life. hahas.. we were helping to pack the stuff and everything when jf came over to our booth to join us. so we were waiting and waiting for chuen full and to help out in the packing of stuff.



we were all set out and ready to go home when he arrived. LOL. it was chuen full with the big big cake from bengawan solo. i really got a surprise.. i have to say it was a beta surprise than jun's one! LOL ooops. cos i truly had no idea at all. cos i was kinda feeling upset over sth and they brigtened my day! lols. i heard that all my colleagues chipped in money for the cake. it really really really touched me. i was almost on the verge of tears. LOL. ricky johnathan2 also wished me. LOL. i really have the best colleagues.



so we went to eat the cake and they sang me a bdae song. LOL. we ate the cake.. and kenny wished me too! yeah i remembered now.. that stupid chee meng acherli forgot my bdae!! grrr. LOL. thanks chuenfull, jiafeng, halim, eric, thalal and rusdi! especially thalal. i only noe him for two days!! lols. it was the best bdae i had..



and yes, he was very sweet. he said that he wanted to be the last to wish me happy birthday so that i will remember his wishes forever. LOL. and to think i acherli misunderstood him.. and i was really prepared to ignore him for the rest of my life. LOL. thanks everyone for giving me such an unforgettable birthday!

okies a quick update. ytd i went to work at suntec comex 2oo5. i think the whole day was great.. kana cheated by ricky la. the comex started at 12 and he told me it started at 11. made me rush and rush and even had to call jf to wake her up. LOL. pretty long time since i last stood 9 hours. it was terrible. my leg was pain and sour. LOL. fortunately i managed to sell 4. $90 on the first day is a gd start.

close shop at around 9. went to eat kfc with eric, jf and chuen full. lols.. i wanted to eat mac de k! these three noobs told me to eat kfc. kfc had nothing at that hour.. no lemon tea. no this no that. yucks. and thank u chuen full for treating me kfc. LOL. he is such a big water tank. finished that big big cup of water in no time. omg. LOL. reached home at 11 plus, took a bath and chatted to halim for a while. oh yeah, he came and gave me the pressie. i dunno whether to feel happy or irritated? -shrugs- sometimes i wish he will jus get off my back.

today is a nice friday. i wanted to go to sch.. but i couldnt make myself wake up so i ponned.. i knew i disappointed wenjun they all by not turning up especially when many turned up cos of me. LOL. so i decided to sleep in till 1130 and meet them in sch. but me this ultimate big pig.. slept till 1215. rushed to meet them and i was given a big surprise. LOL. when i reached sch, there they were with the big choco cake. so they sang me a birthday song and i cut the cake. i was touched.

wenjun they all still bluffed me that they didnt buy any present for me.. but they did.. the wallet that i have been craving for! lols. the card they wrote meant a lot to me too.. i felt so loved today. benson said that he is going to treat to me sushi buffet! yeah. looking forward. yuefeng still owe me my pressie! lols.. i am mei nu for the next week he claims.

thank u wenjun, chenhui, kahfong, kok swee, karthik, bay hung, aik leng, zelun, benson and yuefeng for giving me such a memorable pre-birthday bash. did i miss anyone out? i hope not. lols.