the source of my happiness
and the source of my troubles.

i'd probably be lying through my teeth if i were to say i am in a good mood. right. i am definitely not in a good mood. and i am feeling troubled and low. i think i looked like a zombie walking out on the streets today, completely oblivious to my surroundings. a car honked at me when i was about to cross the road.

two days in a row that i almost got knocked down by a car.
sometimes i wonder.. why cant the cars just knock me down and save me from this misery and all these thinking. wouldnt it be better if i didnt had to think about all the stuff thats happening right now.

the fact that i would be obviously going to get a big fat F for my midyr is already saddening enough. if this is gonna be the way i do my mid yr, den i think i am gonna get Fs for my a level too. the teachers had already sent their silent warnings to us that its not the time to slack anymore.

sighs. nothing is the same anymore.
i am not updating anymore. peace out.

yesterday we had a big fight.
i was supposed to feel hurt and sad by what he said
but i dunno why when he told me he bet with bookie so that he would lose more money and that i would care about him more.
my heart jus went to him.

and when he told me he requested from his friends to be afk from dota for one minute every now and then to reply my sms, i felt really touched.
i noe that he hadnt been neglecting me that much as last time.
was i the one who had been asking too much?

it felt like it had been placed in a paper shredder. shredded to pieces.
all my anguish jus disappeared.
and it turned out that maybe i dun understand him as well as i thought. there are things which he is sensitive about and yet i dunno about them.

i am sorry bryce.
maybe i was the one who asked too much.

i am very sad.
very very sad.
how does it feel like to have someone misunderstand ur actions and find fault with you jus becos he doesnt noe the real reason? ask me. i noe.
how does it feel to know that someone u like doesnt trust u at all? ask me. i noe.

i am a fool.
a fool to think u understood

i just had the weirdest dream in my entire life.
i dreamt about this person whom i have stopped talking to a long time ago.
someone who used to be quite close to me.
initially i thought nothing of it
but after that when i came online, this person suddenly came and talk to me.
i have not contacted this person for a long time.

and why did i suddenly dream about this person?
its really weird.
and what spooks me is that after i dreamt about this person,
he came and talk to me.. arghs.
i am spooked! am i having sixth sense? lol.

watched the omen ytd. although jf and yt think that it isnt nice
i felt that the show had an interesting storyline.
the only disappointing part was the ending.
the rest was quite thrilling. it wasnt scary at all!
satan's number:666. wees.

"from the eternal sea he rises.
creating armies on either shore.
turning man against his brother.
until man exists no more."

world cup 2oo6
germany 4 : coasta rica 2
wees. haha. acherli the match ytd was boring.
the only exciting part was that there were alr 3 goals in less than 20 minutes
other than that, i spent the time yawning away and sms-ing.

i like the way klose celebrated his 2 goals.
he kissed his ring. so nice..
hopefully germ, eng and brazil will fight for the cup.
it will be exciting. i will be watching ((:


my fav pose of klose. taken from jun's blog

these few days have been pretty constructive.
almost finished up my revision on chem.
halfway through maths. been going out to study too.
right, the momentum is back. i am studying!

i am a happy girl
becos i have a sweet boy
i love you dear.
i trust you, i really do.

I AM VERY ANGRY NOW.
fuck mr lee.
i hate him.

lousy teachers jus make my day SO WONDERFUL.
get off my back dumbass.
you cant teach.

u successfully pissed me off.
stop calling my house i d i o t.
my mum aint gonna listen to you.

fuck. i am really boiling now.
ready to explode any moment.

i have deleted away the last post i wrote due to my pms.
or rather it was after-ms. hahas.
so if u didnt catch the last post, TOO BAD.

mid year is jus around the corner. to be exact, its two weeks away.
and i am still fucking slack.
cant find the motivation, the mood and the mind to study.
screw me ppl.

i am so distracted by other things
my mood aint great these few days
been feeling low
and the stupid flu cant seem to go away

sighs!

wad a pathetic life.
i dun wanna mug.
but i dun wanna fail my exams. arghs.

save me.