right. these few words kept on reiterating itself into my head. resounding through every part of my body. "your A levels examination is jus a few more months away. you should start now. if you fail your A levels, you have two choices, go MI or go nowhere.''

well. as if we weren't already stressed enough.

bombarded by endless tests. cant seem to ever get enough sleep. and worse still, i cant seem to sleep at night. my stress level is going up. maths test today was alright. thanks to mr leow who explained some maths to me.

all the teachers who are teaching me doesnt seem to be very good. except our chem teacher.. he is GREAT. i jus seemed to finish O levels yesterday and now i am preparing myself for A levels. something is so seriously wrong with the singapore education system.

volleyball is fun. addiction.

i seem to be distracted. i dun wanna fail my A levels but i cant seem to find the motivation to start NOW. i am not those kind of mugger with no life. my life isnt about studies.. is about so many other things. sighs.

i miss you so.

F3 Chalet
Venue: Aloha Loyang
Date: 14th-16th March

gees. i am finally back from the chalet. had great fun there definitely. jf and me met up on the first day in search of my ipod nano which actually costs 348 for a 2GB one. i was so disappointed. and den while waiting for the-forever-late chong tat, we ended up shopping at city link and i bought myself a beautiful shiny beaded necklace. way out of my usual style. lols. (: cos jf said i must break out of my style to achieve greater heights?

and den we went to aloha loyang with chong tat for the F3 chalet. alex came out with his bike to fetch us and i coerced him to let me ride his bike. lols. after that me milton and mervyn taught jf how to cycle and we spent around one and a half hour trying to teach her. she learnt to peddle with much more confidence after that. we went back and played volleyball with.. basketball. we didnt have a choice.

me weiquan and jason cycled to the F4 chalet at arenda country club while jf walked. becos she was scared of cars and she was still unstable on her bike. me and weiquan was cycling slowly intially but after that we decided to find the place first and we zoomed off, leaving jf and jason far far behind. found roy and chatted a bit. when we went home, we ps-ed jf with may and weiyuan the two lovebirds and they strolled home while we raced back to the chalet.

after that was more cycling and cycling due to jf's request. we cycled for the whole night. and she improved. she could even catch up with us slowly. i must say that i am a gd teacher. lols. but whenever there are cars.. she will panic and scream. -.-''

i think i practially didnt sleep a wink. we bathed only at around 7am in the morning and had mac breakfast. played mahjong for around 6 hours and i lost $2 plus. i learnt a lot more about mahjong. its actually a duper nice game to while your time away. after that i went up to chat with andy and zheng quan while jf went to sleep. it was quite fun chatting with them except that they kept making fun of my accent. zzz.

went down to fry rice for the ppl and i should say its a thumbs-up for my first try. lols. the rice actually turned out edible and i think it tasted nice. had barbecue and the chicken wings were not thoroughly cooked. went cycling again with milton weiquan jf and mervyn. chatted with milton on the beach while the three cycled. after that me and jf cycled and she fell down two times becos she couldnt avoid the ppl walking which was.. lols. and she even fell in front of a whole group of ppl.

went home around 10 and hitched a ride from chong tat's dad back home. i fell asleep in the car and jf too. i was really disorientated. my body is aching everywhere from too much cycling i think. and i have a lot more blue blacks this time.. maybe they developed when jf rammed her bike into mine. lols.

i miss him so much during the chalet..
everything's back to normal already. and better.

i was so wrong
he dun understand
he doesnt noe how i feel
after 4 bloody long years.

a misplaced love.
so, dota is more impt?
your friends are more impt?
soccer bball is more impt?

i tried to hold on
i tried to mend the broken pieces
only to have u break them all over again
maybe things should stop.

courage is all i have
strength is all i need
everything you said.. are lies.

alrights. i am seriously worn out now. shall summarise everything. on thursday i pon sch cos i totally am SICK of school. went for orientation 2 jj nite. had great fun dancing with francis.. sweating the hell outta me. hugged my og girls.. hais. i miss those times when we were together. time will nv go back. if given a chance i will gladly do orientation all over again.

on friday went to play volleyball with the usual gang. ponned maths lesson, gp and pc. dear DM lee still sms me and say " i am going to tell your parents you did not attend my extra lesson today''. oh as if i even care? bring it on man. went to sy house.. so beautiful. went kallang theatre to watch ali baba. it was quite nice if not for the fact that my mind was somewhere else...

working day today. i am seriously tired out. dun feel like going to work tmls. maybe i wun go. i thought i felt so torn apart these few days. i saw chong tat today at suntec, menghow and karhow. they all wanna buy pc or laptops. but only one bought from me. LOLs.

jus another note, i really wanna thank nikolas for accompanying me through my lowest period of my life. he is really a great friend. he stood by me and i noe he forever will. lols. you rock! and i stone. LOLs. i will never forget wad u said "text me, call me or wadever. my hp will be jus beside me. i will be there when u need me''. i am like so touched lahs.

haven been updating for quite a whiles. guess i am jus plain LAZY. the feeling of completing your work beforehand really feels great. at least i dun have so much to do during weekdays and i can really rest and sleep earlier. lols. on 1st march, the seniors came back to get their results. i was really appalled.

some were crying tears of sadness while some were weeping tears of joy. desmond got A A B. woahs. i am like.. wow. lols. ke qi also A A B. i hope that i can get their results for my a level. afterall we are from same sec sch same jc.. so... hopefully the genes will pass on to me. LOLs. got back my chinese a level result also.. got an A1 with oral distinction. wells, not much feeling.

i am also beginning to look forward to pc lesson. its such great fun. ytd ms chua took us for pc.. its tiring but at the same time FUN!. i think everyone including mr ng mistook me and yf as a couple. zz. that time play volleyball he still go and ask yuefeng how is his gf and den.. pointing his fingers at me.. lols. can see our face immediately sian diao. lol. so funny. ppl, we are jus gd friends. LOL.

i spotted a TYR shorts. its like.. damn chio larhs. and priced at 22.90. hmm. the temptation is back again! lols. looking forward to class outing on 18/3. weets. sure have lotsa fun at sentosa. nothing to update la seriously... life is pretty mundane. so.. stop asking me to update. and 20 tags per update alrights. LOLs!