the past week had been a pretty fruitful week. been studying in school with my bunch of cute classmates and it somehow really motivates me to study better. it's their company that makes my day so bright and colourful. especially kfc with all her 'non-stop highness' and simply contagious laughter. lol.

finally rolled out to meet ouyang today after like 2months plus. i missed her lots! we always cant seem to be able to find a perfect time to meet since poly and jc's timetable are a big contrast. we took neos and had a really long good chat. we talked about everything under the sun from love to friends to everything else. the girls's talk really made my day.




and finally. the picture of the day.



my old friend. i think this is cute!

i had a late night yesterday and i am still feeling kind of sleepy now. but i think its all worthwhile if i am able to help my dear out. even if its jus editing his horrendous english. (:

it's time for another weekly update. life in school has been pretty much boring with me almost facing the notes, tys and books everyday. nothing much interesting happened except that today is ziping's birthday. happy birthday! he is already 24? 25? yrs old. really old. still dun wanna get married. i think he should start settling down in a few years time with his good old al. lol.

i broke a new record last month. my hp bill came and on it wrote : 1745msg. when i read that part my eyes almost popped out. 1745 msges in jus one month! hoorays to grace. hoorays to bryce for breaking a new record last month. and the aftermath is that my pocket money got deducted for next week. so i am very broke. so now we have reduced msging to chatting on msn. i hope it helps. we shall see.

last week while i was going home at around 8pm, the sky was dark and the streets quiet. i walked past the coffeeshop and this guy looked at me and suddenly said "byebye xiao jie''. i ignored him and thought nth of it. but after that he chased after me and kept making funny noises. he kept shouting "xiao jie xiao jie'' and i was petrified mortified and horrified. i ran for my life. lol. it was so horrible. i swear i am nv going to walk past that coffeeshop again.

i guess i am lovesick. i am actually missing him right now even though i am msging him.
the power of love?

its another one of my sleepless nights. i really havent been able to sleep peacefully for quite a long time. many a times, i wake up in the middle of the night and cant get back to sleep. its draining all my energy from me. surprisingly i am still as energetic in school. everytime i get to the bed at night and the fear reside in me. will it be another sleepless night?

maybe its the stress setting in. the stress that the teachers had ''unknowingly'' given us. the admonitions i hear everyday telling us to work hard for the alvls. everyday i hear the same things over and over again. "its too late to start now." or "you must start revising for ur alvls now." i feel kind of suffocated.

the teachers are really pushing all the J2s hard. everyday u see lots of J2s staying back to mug till late evening. the atmosphere is horrible. books, notes and tys. they have become a daily neccesity of my life. how nice. i didnt even feel 0.1% of wad i am feeling now during olvls. i wasnt at all worried about my olvls. there are also other things that are bothering me besides my studies.

these other things have also become a burden to me. i feel stressed everyday that i must live up to someone's expectations. i live in fear everyday not knowing when things will just go wrong. a rubber band when stretched too much can snap too. i really cant handle so many things at one time. the person who all along had been my pillar of strength is also giving me problems.

i am so tired. maybe its better to let go than hold on.
i have lost the strength and courage to hold on.
i dunno wad else to believe in.

i guess its time for another round of update before my blog gets abandoned.
there is only one word to describe my feelings now.

stress stress stress and more stress

i guess everyone is feeling the heat.
everyone is feeling stressed.
jus heard that my uncle passed away in the wee hours ytd.
i felt kinda sad even though i wasnt close to him.

but what kind of pissed me off is that my aunty called me and asked me about my uncle. but after jus one or two sentences of well wishes she proceeded on to her ultimate motive.

'' wad time did he die?"
'' how old was he? ''
'' which blk is the funeral held?"

come on. all she can think of is 4-D at this point of time. i dunno wad to say.
i felt ashamed to have this kind of relative who cares more about 4D rather than how the deceased's family is feeling. wtf. wad have this world become to? a world void of compassion and sympathy.