went out with ouyang today. finally.
shopped till my legs almost broke.
happy girl today cos bought some things at reasonable prices.
the shorts at topshop super nice but super ex.

bought a bracelet at topshop. and a shirt at another shop which i cant seem to remember the name anymore.
shall upload the pics some other time.
meanwhile, i slept with a hornet in my room for one whole nite the other day without me realising anything.

luckily it didnt sting me. or else i would have been on my way to heaven.
current money status: totally broke.
i hate people who smoke.


the hornet i slept with.

i am seriously seriously disappointed in one of my friends. i dunno wad he is thinking. nothing i said seems to get into his head. i totally give up on him. i dun even feel like talking to him anymore. he really disappointed me. you disappointed me thoroughly.

ytd was my darling nu ren jiafeng's 18th birthday!
happy birthday nu ren! muacks!

we bought a pair of haviannas green slipper for her, a converse pencil case and gave it to her in the morning. i specially made a card for her too. lol. hope that she likes it. i spent a lot of effort on it kays. and i did the card when i was supposed to be studying for physics practical. on thursday morning i manage to lose the left side of my contact lens and i was left half blinded for the day.

so i had to rush home to get my specs and rush back for chem tutorial. i think about more than 5 peeps said i looked nicer in specs. wth. lol.

had physics spa. all went well i guess. i wrote a lot. and i really mean a lot. lol. thanks kfc for giving us the tips and answers. luckily everything came out as we predicted. whew. got back p&c and prob test. i got 10/15. i felt really happy. cos i thought i would get zero. -.-'' hehs. was feeling unwell on tuesday for no apparent reason. had slight fever and couldnt accompany sy on an important mission.

last night we gave jf a surprise in crystal jade while she was having her dinner with her family. i called her dad to ask whether they bought a cake for her. so malu cans. i was like praying that jf wouldnt pick up the call. wahah. turns out that her dad spoke rather 'softly' and she heard everything. we bought a cake and sent our spy estherL to work. lol the funny thing is jf spotted her before she spotted jf which was zz. could see that jf was indeed surprised and very touched and her eyes were brimming with tears can. LOL.

happy birthday to kahfong too! love ya.

i was touched ytd as well due to some stuff. but shant say it here.
grace is sick.
but grace is happy. becos he cares. (:
grace is happy becos he is sweet.

talentime ytd was cool and exhilarating. i got super high ytd. it was held at nanyang auditorium in NTU. the place was nice.. jus that the air con wasnt strong and i was sweating. some of the talentime special performances even got me up on my feet and cheered, shouting for encore. the most interesting part was when the MP for Joo Chiat Mr Chan Soo Sen went on stage to sing those oldies. he got the whole crowd laughing and cheering.

and the winners are decided through voting. the audience gets to vote via smsing. i was shocked to hear that. such empowerment of the audience. even in my school. the dance category had the toughest fight i thought. all were strong teams with talent and good calibre.

right. i am going through a very crictical and trying period. i can only hope that i will cross this hurdle as soon as possible. i certainly dun like the way things are going now.. the frequent quarrels and misunderstandings. the lack of trust, faith and communication. the bugging issues we always fail to address and come up with a win-win solution. i am trying hard. i will not give up.

everything i say seems to be wrong
even what i think is wrong.
and now, trying is wrong too.
what am i supposed to do?

it has been a long weekend for me. a very tiring one cos i met with some huge problems regarding ahem. two guys. especially ytd.. i felt like i could really breakdown any moment. thats jus me. always so indecisive. my brain almost snapped. so i cooped myself up in the room and refused to eat or do anything other than use the blanket and cover my head. anyway ppl, this method doesnt work. it just makes you think ever more.

no replies. no calls. it jus makes my life miserable. felt like i could jump down the building and die any moment. yes, life does not revolve around him. but to me, it does. the world would stop spinning without him.

call me stupid. call me dumb. call me moron. wadever that pleases you. isnt loving someone meant to be like this in the first place?

the gd news is we made up today. life is the same again. hopefully. after this crisis, i think we can understand each other more. its jus another three more years. we can do it. and i made up my mind.

celebrated mother's day on saturday. had steamboat. yummys. was reading kahfong's blog, it made me think alot. my mum is all i have left now isnt it? yeah i dun have a dad in case u all dunno. i lost him to cancer a few years back. she is really very noble. its really hard on her. i love my mum. even though i nv tell her that. i am just too proud. (:

special thanks to hongngiap and nikolas for listening to my troubles especially when both of them are equally as troubled as me and yet they gave me really gd advices. and also not forgetting my nuren jiafeng. i jus love them to bits.

you will always be my number one.
and there will only be number one in my heart.
i really love you a lot. (:
although i disappoint you time and again, you still forgave me.
i wanna marry you. <3

was just pondering abt wad yuefeng said to me during the physics lecture when we were crapping our time away. he said that there is always ups and downs in a relationship.. after the 'ups' period comes the 'down' period. right.. it is so much like a roller coaster. well.. kind of moody lately.

cant really get the right mood to do anything cos there are some problems on my mind. and i cant seem to shake them off no matter how hard i try. it has been a long term problem of ours. i tried to endure.. and didnt complain so much. but then it seems to get worse. i am not saying i wanna give up.. but its so tiring. ):

watched poseidon today. seriously i think its a really nice show.. the sound effects were really great. i could feel my heart thumping and the whole seat vibrating.. its really loud. lol. it was resonance. oops. i seriously recommend this show.. i thought it would be a love story akin to that of titanic.. but its different. the storyline is quite well planned. the only sad part is that the dad died...

really moody even though i laugh like mad in sch. jus trying to hide and not affect my bunch of classmates cos they are really nice. was talking to hongngiap a few days back. i felt really touched cos he confided in me. he ran into some problems. i am glad that my og members still talk to me like the gd old days. (: thats all folks.

i am not giving up like this, am i?
i am not going to throw away our relationship like this, am I?

caterpillar attack

i was taking bus to sch this morning all perked up when i felt sth tickling on my neck.. i thought it was my untied hair or some ant crawling so i used my fingers to grab wadever was tickling me. when i grabbed 'that thing' i felt that it was very thick.. and then i saw it. it was a CATERPILLAR! omfg.

a caterpillar crawling on my neck! it was green and slimy and thick and hairy! no one told me it was on my neck. i dropped the caterpillar and it refused to budge. it stuck onto my bag. i was petrified, horrified and terrified! i shoved and shoved and it still refused to move. on the verge of tears, i finally managed to push the caterpillar away.

BUT! it hung on to my bag.. there was a string or sth. i was super scared! no one helped me.. i wanted to scream lah. i was making stiffled noises due to my fright and managed to kick the caterpillar away. and then! it stuck on to the bus wall. jus beside my leg.. for the rest of the journey i kept my eyes on that caterpillar, afraid that it might crawl onto my leg or wad. lols.

alot of images flashed thru my mind. wad if it crawled into my ear? wad if it crawled onto my face? wad if it dropped inside my shirt? argggghs. that feeling is really beyond words. i am scared of anything that crawls. if it was a cockroach i would have taken my slipper or shoe and whacked it. but it was a caterpillar! i am scared of anything without legs and crawls.

election is drawing near and i am excited to see the results. cos this is the first time PAP failed to grab half of the seats during nomination day.. therefore polling day will be exciting. i will be anticipating it. maths test today was easy.. really easy. (:

highlight of today:
my shoe that saved the day

yeahs. my amazing shoe saved my day and also wenjun and kahfong's day. today we were supposed to retake standing broad jump cos we didnt get silver the other time which apparently happened to be our worst item in napfa. so we went to try again.. three of us failed to get silver again for the first attempt. after that dunno who suggested putting a shoe.. and dunno why my shoe ended up on the scale..

my shoe amazingly did a great job and all of us passed with a silver! wees. i improved by 11cm from my last attempt. chenhui did a superb job even without my shoe. LOL. wenjun finally managed to pass his sbj with a mark of 224cm. all thanks to my magical shoe which must have possessed some power, i think. lols. kfc improved from 150 to 163 which was.. WOW. great job guys. i had fun doing pc with all of u. LOL.

after that went to maths lesson. i caught a look of surprise on mr lee's face cos we never ever turn up for his extra lessons.. we are a bunch of ponners. kahfong was so nice to help me copy the GP questions onto a foolscap. we werent doing maths at all during the lesson. i was doing physics cos mr oh punished me by making me copy the whole solution to the practical.. and mind you, the solution was super long and full of diagrams

oh shucks. i am lazy to blog about ytd. thanks benson aka meitui aka xiaobai for treating me to marche ytd.. unlike that basket roy. lol. for ytd's outing procedure, pls proceed to roy's blog for more information. oh yah, on another note, good luck for ur upcoming exams zp!

i am so happy and blissful and loved. (: