wee. i am back to blog.. but i would like to apologise to the following : wenjun, karthik, benson and the other two i dunno who.. lols. i am sorry for tua-ing u guys the last minute. sorry lahs.. but i seriously dun feel like going out today. i am really sorry. next time.. maybe? haha.. changed blogskin again.. like this a lot.. hmm..

this week has been pretty fruitful.. i have been very hard working too.. finishing all my assignments and homework way before time. i seriously dunno wads gotten into me. hahaha.. went out with yang on wed to kbox and we went shopping.. i bought a skirt. finally~ haha.. den i went to cut my hair with wenyi. she dyed her hair purple and a lil red. i tot it was nice.. i wanna dye too!

thursday was the first ogl meeting. i am in family 3!! weees. same with jf, alaric and yuefeng. we gonna rock the orientation ppl. so initially we were asked to group according to our names.. and nobody had the same initial as me! i was alone... sobs. and den we had to find our own jigsaw puzzle.. and i couldnt find mine! but then eventually the jigsaw puzzle came to me. lol.

after we were grouped accoring to our families, we had a lil ice breaking game.. to bond us together.. it was quite fun. me and jf were pretty high and crazy. LOL. red lorry yellow lorry. say this five times and i bet ur tongue will get all twisted up. lol. and den we had the squirrel hunter fire game.. yuefeng and jf had to do forfeit cos they were the odd ones out. LOL so they ended up having to sing three blind mice to the uncle right right across the road. lol.

and friday sth interesting happened. lectures were called off.. because there was a power failure! lols. can u all imagine? blackout everywhere.. no air con.. no lights.. and we continued with our lessons. i was dozing off under the extreme conditions.. lol. yupps.. thats all folks. wun update so soon.. maybe few mths later. depending on my mood. tata.. see ya guys.

and yupps, jus wanna say sth else.. congrats to my pal chuenfull. hahaha. i am happy for ya too. *winks* work harder wors.

looking forward to orientation 2oo6.

i am really pissed now. wads the matter with my pw group mates? i cant seem to understand.. this is NOT the first time this kinda things happen.. i am seriously PISSED ppl. i spent 4 solid hours in that powerpoint slides.. u guys were the one that asked me to go home and do the slides.. i am ok with it.. i spent so much effort in it. 4 hours ok. i did the animations did everything clearly and nicely. and den wad happened?

i jus now called her cos she ask me to bring the slides. i was like huh? wasnt she supposed to do that.. so oh finally.. i was the last to noe that they decided to do their own slides already. wtf la. if u all wanna do ur own slides pls tell me earlier! dun make me do all those for nothing.. if i noe.. den i wun spend so much effort on it.. i would give u guys a sloppy one. i even took the effort to draw that thing one line by one line.. all my effort for nth man.

this is not the first time.. last time i wrote the written report.. typed everything our one word by one word and then in the end i realised that the finalised report didnt even one bit looked like mine.. so they changed everything again. hellO!!!!!! is not i dun wan to put effort.. u guys are *$&^#%&*@#@*&. next time i am not gonna volunteer to do anything. i am always the last to noe that there is no meeting.. or the last to noe that there is a meeting.. i am the last to noe the meeting time etcetc. am i a part of that group in the first place.

wtf wtf la. argggggghs. i am so PISSSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEED. i dun really voice out my views in sch is becos i dun wanna argue with u guys. its a waste of my time. especially HER! stop dominating the DAMN project will ya. its OUR project.. not yours. i dun care if anyone of u read this.. all the better if someone from my grp read this..

u guys waste my time doing the slides. i put in so much effort. all for nothing man. if u guys gonna do ur own f damn slides pls say earlier.. save me the time and effort pls. its not i dun wan to contribute to this whole f project work.. my contributions arent recognised! wtf la. jus one more month to OP and i can say GOODBYE to u guys esp her. i dun hate them. i am jus fookingly pissed.

when things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
when the road you are trudging seems all uphill,
when the funds are low and the debts are high,
and you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
when care is pressing you down a bit-
rest if you must, but dont you quit.

life is queer with its twists and turns,
as everyone of us sometimes learns,
and many a fellow turn about
when he might have won had he stuck it out.
dont give up though the pace seems slow-
you may succeed with another blow.

often the goal is nearer than
it seems to a faint and faltering man;
oftern the struggler has given up
when he might have captured the victor's cup;
and he learned too late when the night came down,
how close he was to the golden crown.

success is failure turned inside out-
the silver tint in the clouds of doubt,
and you can never tell how close you are,
it might be near when it seems afar;
so stick to the fight when you're hardest hit-
it's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

this is something that mrs joey tan shared with the class today. i find it so inspiring. i admit that these few days i have been looking gloomier than usual.. forcing myself to laugh and smile like my usual self. but after today's session with mrs tan, i felt so much better.. i shall not quit halfway. i will persevere on..

going for the OGL interview with jf this coming saturday.. hopes that we can make it.

got back my results le. not very gd.. although i attained 2As 2Aos to promote.. but its jus a borderline case.. during chem lecture mrs tay said " if you are those that manage to pass all but with a borderline case only.. then u really need to think whether the JC system is suitable for you".. to make the day worse, i failed my chem. i still haven exactly recover from the shock that i acherli failed my chem.. supposedly my best subject. once again, i let myself down.

i suddenly realise that there is no time for slacking in jc life. even right after our promos, we have to go on with normal lessons.. we started new topics on maths and chemistry. i really lose all hope in my chem le.. maybe the more confident u are, the more likely u will make blunders. shrugs. have i really made the right choice upon entering jc? giving up hope man.. i dun seem to do as well as last time.. my results dropped terribly.

and seeing my other friends getting gd results.. really make me feel so inferior and stressed. i wonder whether issit i am stupid or i didnt work hard enuff. i dun wanna find excuses for my terrible results anymore.. i hate this life. i hate my life. i hate everything now.

alrights. so the promos are over.. its been such a long time since i felt so at ease and happy. i was so elated right after the physics ytd even though i noe i wun do well.. so after that i dated yang out.. long time no see her le.. stupid ouyang.. pls date me out more often.! lols.. we went to eat and watched the movie 'the myth'. its a pretty nice movie.. benson, jun and yuyan tagged along too..

hmm so went ard walk walk.. bought stuffs.. and ytd i tried to curl my hair for the first time!. hahaha i looked so matured. i think i still stick to straight hair for now beta.. anyone wan to date me.. i am free like jf. always available.. unless i have other plans. so pls date me out ppl! leave ur name and contact number.. i will get back to u soon. LOL!! below is a list of things i wanna do:

1. go shopping
2. kbox-ing
3. learn roller blading
4. cycling
5. work
6. chiong with yt
7. secret

a simple girl i shall be.. t-shirt and jeans only..

what the fuck am i doing here at this time?

everyone is mugging their time away. and here i am wasting my time changing blogskin and updating my blog~ argghs. can someone jus kindly slap me hit me or kill me to wake me up? if this goes on i will fail my promos man.

there seems to be so much to study but yet.. whenever i study there seems to be nothing to study. sounds contradictory eh? feeling darn frustrated now... i cant seem to get anything done at all. where has the good old hardworking me gone to? can even remember clearly the times when i chiong for my o levels.. now i am jus slacking.

please save me someone.. i dun wanna fail my promos. but i jus cant seem to get down to studying.. halim said that i dun look like a jc student.. cos i am way too too too slack to be one. i suppose jc students are all muggers. argggh! why cant i jus mug like them? arggh!!!! c'mon grace, go mug! u can do it... oh shucks. i doubt it.

fuck the promos. i hate promos. i hate exams. get away from me!